haix i'm talkin to myself again. Hmmm i'm not sure y i bother wif wen yew. y i'm even friends wif him. i don even lyk him. still i'm there tryin to help him out. i'm not askin 4 reconition or anything. i jus hate to c screwed up relationships. haix. honestly i find wen yew i possesive n easily jealous guy. kay maybe not easily. as far as i noe something happened between them i guessin. amanda must have two-timed him or something. still if she didn't truelly love him she wouldn't begged him to patch back. i doubt wen yew c's tis maybe he does i guess he's very different from mi i hardly get jealous. well tat's wen yew's point of view i think he's lyin bout how big the situation is. Amanda seems to love him alot i doubt she's smart enuf to fake it. still wen yew doesn't trust her in truth i don really either but i don care. why the Hell do i care? Why do i care about them? Screw it i'm not gonna care bout them. My lyf is so screwed up i got no good friends no 1 can talk to n tell wat i really feel bout something.

Heys manda told eu i'll post bout it it's a bit late though. kay firstly i think the problem is tat eu hardly spend anytime wif ur clique try to go out more often organise trips or something lyk tat eu can do it while wen yew has remedial (which is quite often) so tat he doesn't sae tat eu don care him or wateva anyway tue we usually have remedial. anw tat all i thing there is to it. Ur friends aren't to talkin simply b'cos of the lack of time eu guys spend together. Another method is tat eu cry in class n tearfully explian tat ur sad cos ur clique broke up blah blah blah although tat a bit drastic =/. lolz anw tat's all i can think of if spendin time wif them doesn't work tell mi i'll try to think of something else. cya

note tat i'll be cancellin ur entry tmr =p anw
Wad to do when WY ignores eu n eu freak out n panic:
lolz anw don worry too much bout it after awhile he'll get bored n start talkin to eu again the thing is jus keep msging him try not to pressure him to talk to eu jus lyk let him noe ur there 4 him when he nids cos he may not always be in the mood to talk to eu oso eu mayb callin n msgin so much it's startin to get on his nerves so if ur lonely jus go call myirah or someone n talk to tat person. Also ask if eu can call don jus msg n wait 4 him to call if eu really wan to talk to him cos bein the classic kiasu s'porean he doesn't wan to pay to much 4 his fone bill. If eu think he's ignorin eu send a few msgs don demand 4 him to reply jus pretend ur talkin to a wall talk bout random things or jus send a random ily/imy/iny/wadeva mushy stuff eu lyk. Generally tat all if eu really think he's angry (angry not ignorin) call mi n i'll c if i can call him (try not to call to early =X) tat bout it.

since no 1 comes to my blog no harm makin it private...i guess it helps to talk to myself...only people i trust will be readin tis blog so i guess there's no harm in puttin names n secrets...i'm at a total loss of wad to do wif abigail...i love her...her uniqueness...her demeanor...i guess love's strong word but i don noe wad else i can use to describe wat i feel...maybe she's happy being single so maybe i shouldn't chase her..or maybe there's someone elses who has her heart...tat's wad matters rite? tat the person u love is happy...so y do i feel so sad?...noeing tat she'll nvr be wif me even if she's happy...i guess i'm being selfish...but isn't it okay to be selfish sometimes?...still wad's the point...even if i wan to be selfish she'll nvr feel the same way i feel about her...so no harm lying to myself...tat i'm being conciderate by not chasin her...although it is wad matters...tat she is happy...all tat matters is tat she's smiling..besides wad can i offer tat can make her happy?...i'm jus some useless guy wif nothing special...i've got nothing...i'm not good lookin..i'm not charming...i'm not smart...i've got nothing tat will make her or any1 lyk me...i've got nothing...i'm i so unworthy tat she won even reject me properly instead of jus ignoring wad i do?...