since no 1 comes to my blog no harm makin it private...i guess it helps to talk to myself...only people i trust will be readin tis blog so i guess there's no harm in puttin names n secrets...i'm at a total loss of wad to do wif abigail...i love her...her uniqueness...her demeanor...i guess love's strong word but i don noe wad else i can use to describe wat i feel...maybe she's happy being single so maybe i shouldn't chase her..or maybe there's someone elses who has her heart...tat's wad matters rite? tat the person u love is happy...so y do i feel so sad?...noeing tat she'll nvr be wif me even if she's happy...i guess i'm being selfish...but isn't it okay to be selfish sometimes?...still wad's the point...even if i wan to be selfish she'll nvr feel the same way i feel about her...so no harm lying to myself...tat i'm being conciderate by not chasin her...although it is wad matters...tat she is happy...all tat matters is tat she's smiling..besides wad can i offer tat can make her happy?...i'm jus some useless guy wif nothing special...i've got nothing...i'm not good lookin..i'm not charming...i'm not smart...i've got nothing tat will make her or any1 lyk me...i've got nothing...i'm i so unworthy tat she won even reject me properly instead of jus ignoring wad i do?...