Stressed~
Haix...I've got so much homework but i just can't seem to do any...my mind can't think. Thr are so much other stuff tat's on my mind...1 of my closest frens seems to be in a horrible mood and i can't seem to be able to cheer her up. Some1 seems to be ignoring me. I dun have any1 i can rly talk to now =/.....haixx~ Daaaaaamn......i jus saw my fren's msn pic wif his gf....now i feel even more depressed T.T zzz...It made me think bout even more stuff....which leads to even more uncertainty....eek....Haix. my blog so borin...no pics...i wanna go camwhore T.T....wth is wrong wif me......
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Confused And Unsure
=/. Been feeling less moody n sad. But not exactly rly happy either. Jus somewhr in the middle. Now i feel so blur. I dun noe wad i should feel, wad i should do and wad all that's happening means. I jus feel so confused. =X. Arg... I wonder whether wad i'm feeling is correct or isit simply another rash notion. I wonder wad she's thinking... I wonder what in the world i as doin when i did tat! T.T Goshh. I'm thinking too much... Maybe i'm jus overreacting. As always. -.-...zzz. lolz
=/. Been feeling less moody n sad. But not exactly rly happy either. Jus somewhr in the middle. Now i feel so blur. I dun noe wad i should feel, wad i should do and wad all that's happening means. I jus feel so confused. =X. Arg... I wonder whether wad i'm feeling is correct or isit simply another rash notion. I wonder wad she's thinking... I wonder what in the world i as doin when i did tat! T.T Goshh. I'm thinking too much... Maybe i'm jus overreacting. As always. -.-...zzz. lolz
Thursday, March 26, 2009
High A Moment, Depressed Another...
=/... Had mood swings today...Felt depressed, then okay, then depressed and so on...Haix... You would have thought that ppl become more mature when they reach jc. Guess not. Well for some anw...haix...i think i jus lost a fren today ...i've got alot of frens in jj. but vry few close 1s...i think got onli 2... haix....i guess it's btr like tat. i doubt ppl will like mi if they get to rly noe mi. =/ been rly upset recently. Which caused mi to go into irritating mood....I've been trying to get a grip on myself. But i keep seeing things tat cause mi to feel worse, hearing things tat discourage mi...It's just so hard...so confusing...so damned irritating,,, =/...i rly dun wanna be emo... but i can't seem to help it...some ppl may wonder y i can seem to jus go to a random person who's alone n strike up a conv. It's cos i noe how horrible the feeling of loneliness feels. All those times when i just sit in the canteen on my own n ppl dun seem to notice me....I jus keep wishing tat some1 will just come n talk to mi n be concerned as to why i look so dwn. Maybe some do but i'm just too moody to notice n end up chasing them away...Haix~~
=/... Had mood swings today...Felt depressed, then okay, then depressed and so on...Haix... You would have thought that ppl become more mature when they reach jc. Guess not. Well for some anw...haix...i think i jus lost a fren today ...i've got alot of frens in jj. but vry few close 1s...i think got onli 2... haix....i guess it's btr like tat. i doubt ppl will like mi if they get to rly noe mi. =/ been rly upset recently. Which caused mi to go into irritating mood....I've been trying to get a grip on myself. But i keep seeing things tat cause mi to feel worse, hearing things tat discourage mi...It's just so hard...so confusing...so damned irritating,,, =/...i rly dun wanna be emo... but i can't seem to help it...some ppl may wonder y i can seem to jus go to a random person who's alone n strike up a conv. It's cos i noe how horrible the feeling of loneliness feels. All those times when i just sit in the canteen on my own n ppl dun seem to notice me....I jus keep wishing tat some1 will just come n talk to mi n be concerned as to why i look so dwn. Maybe some do but i'm just too moody to notice n end up chasing them away...Haix~~
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Are We Rly Similar?
Haix..I feel so tired. Jc is killin. I went back to bvss for awhile to get cert. Mine for some reason hadn't reached yet -.-.. anws, met quite a few frensthr. eg. fiona , daryl. ended up taking bus wif a group of random sec 3s of which i only noe 1 of em. Was catching up wif abit of gossip n givin them abit of e history of past events concerning my batch LOL. Ended up late in meeting my good fren tim cos 1 of e bus tat came by just drove past -.- wad de.... Anws, i felt bored so i took some personlity test i found on wen yi's blog. Some part rather true some part not some part idk =/
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. (Kinda true. I can listen well. Although i don't noe bout e hiding myself so much, I've changed myself so much to fit e demands of society i don even noe which part of me is my "true self")
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (Somewhat true =/)
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straight forwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. ( o.o cool. although it isn't rly happening right bout now T.T. Lol)
Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. (o.O rly? lol)
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. (kind of)
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. ( well not rly =/)
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (indeed, i've vented my anger on quite some ppl in camp =X sry to all of which i did)
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust. (So so true)
Haix..I feel so tired. Jc is killin. I went back to bvss for awhile to get cert. Mine for some reason hadn't reached yet -.-.. anws, met quite a few frensthr. eg. fiona , daryl. ended up taking bus wif a group of random sec 3s of which i only noe 1 of em. Was catching up wif abit of gossip n givin them abit of e history of past events concerning my batch LOL. Ended up late in meeting my good fren tim cos 1 of e bus tat came by just drove past -.- wad de.... Anws, i felt bored so i took some personlity test i found on wen yi's blog. Some part rather true some part not some part idk =/
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. (Kinda true. I can listen well. Although i don't noe bout e hiding myself so much, I've changed myself so much to fit e demands of society i don even noe which part of me is my "true self")
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (Somewhat true =/)
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straight forwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. ( o.o cool. although it isn't rly happening right bout now T.T. Lol)
Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. (o.O rly? lol)
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. (kind of)
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. ( well not rly =/)
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (indeed, i've vented my anger on quite some ppl in camp =X sry to all of which i did)
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust. (So so true)
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Roller Coaster
Firstly, some pics from LINE camp
Mr Liao (Great Teacher Simon LOL), Uma (emcee) n Asief (night games ic)
Same ppl
Mr liao ( again ) Liyana (my 2nd ic) n Glenn (or zhong yan)
Glenn looks so dead. LOL
Firstly, some pics from LINE camp
Grace. Btw, i barely noe her. Dun assume anything. Jus a fellow camwhorer ^^
Amanda. E almuni which came to help us =)
Mr Liao (Great Teacher Simon LOL), Uma (emcee) n Asief (night games ic)
Same ppl
Mr liao ( again ) Liyana (my 2nd ic) n Glenn (or zhong yan)
Glenn looks so dead. LOL
Mr liao (AGAIN) lol. Fitri. Zhen Yu aka Tom n Aik Song the Council President
Grace again
Soon Li
Me n Kenneth ^^
Acbc =P
Acbc =P
This camp was rly memorable. It was so different doing thing from the point of view of aplanning committee. I'll nvr 4get this camp =)
Monday, March 23, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
Finally Some1 I Can Talk To =)
Firstly, lemme start off with something which i'm rather disturbed bout. It bout a classmate of mine, rodger. I'm pretty sure h harbours some kind a of a dislike for me. Of which i'm perfectly okay with. I'm used to it. But what troubles me is something which he did. He's the class treasurer. Hence he collects money for everything. when he was collecting asking to collect money, i asked to see what i was paying for. Maybe it was my tone or something but he seemed rather irritated n claimed that i was trying cause trouble for him and that y should i care since i was not under e financial assitance progamme. Honestly, i wasn't trying to cause trouble or anything. Maybe my tone wasnt tat nice cos i was in a bit of a hurry to go. N even tho i'm not under a FAS, i do wish to noe bout what i'm paying for as i don't like to squander my parent's money uneccesarily. =/ Anws, made quite a good friend today. For ppl tat saw me at Jp today we're nthing more then frens -.-...dun giv me that look. Finally some1 i can rly talk to =). i'll elaborate more nxt time. dad's rushin mi. cya all
Firstly, lemme start off with something which i'm rather disturbed bout. It bout a classmate of mine, rodger. I'm pretty sure h harbours some kind a of a dislike for me. Of which i'm perfectly okay with. I'm used to it. But what troubles me is something which he did. He's the class treasurer. Hence he collects money for everything. when he was collecting asking to collect money, i asked to see what i was paying for. Maybe it was my tone or something but he seemed rather irritated n claimed that i was trying cause trouble for him and that y should i care since i was not under e financial assitance progamme. Honestly, i wasn't trying to cause trouble or anything. Maybe my tone wasnt tat nice cos i was in a bit of a hurry to go. N even tho i'm not under a FAS, i do wish to noe bout what i'm paying for as i don't like to squander my parent's money uneccesarily. =/ Anws, made quite a good friend today. For ppl tat saw me at Jp today we're nthing more then frens -.-...dun giv me that look. Finally some1 i can rly talk to =). i'll elaborate more nxt time. dad's rushin mi. cya all
Sunday, March 8, 2009
1 More Week Till I'm Screwed
It's been soo long since i've blogged. Been rly busy lately. Everyday reach home damn late. The only day which i went home late n it wasn't cos of planning com was ytd. Cos i mugged a bit at west mall mac. It's been so hectic recently. But it's been fun lah. Somewhat. Well compared to other committees n the facilitators it seems boring -.-...I dun rly noe wad to blog bout now..=/ i guess i'll just talk bout ytd. It rly didn't feel like saturday. I had to go back to sch the whole day. I finish at bout 7+. Then went to mac. On e way there i kept getting suan or dao by the twins n kenneth. I got a feeling my class doesn't rly like me. But who cares. Then i went to talk to analise since she was rather quiet. Was cos she wasn't from our class n got nth to talk bout. She's a secetriat tat i met while slackng in the leaders network. (it' a room for leaders) Her name rly cool rite? I was like, " hey your name's rly cool" . Then i saw that her suname was koo. N i was like okayy..LOL. Anws, i found out that she was a fellow slacker ^^....wait.....tat's not a good thing...-.-....At mac, i onli bought a coffee cos i was havin dinner at home. I spent motof e time talking to analise. Quite fun to talk to her. The other say we in a world of our own. I tried talking to them they oso dao mi -.-..So wad's e point. lol. My first impression of her was vry different from wad i found her to b afterwards. She looked more innocent at first. Lol.
Dedication
Jean/Kiko
I'd like to thank you for being a good frined to my despite all the things that have happened. I noe that i can count on eu for support and advise whenever i need. Thank you for all that you've done. Hmm...according to other ppls dedications, i'm supposed to say when i met u or how i got to noe eu....but i can't rmb...=X. Lolz Cya soon
It's been soo long since i've blogged. Been rly busy lately. Everyday reach home damn late. The only day which i went home late n it wasn't cos of planning com was ytd. Cos i mugged a bit at west mall mac. It's been so hectic recently. But it's been fun lah. Somewhat. Well compared to other committees n the facilitators it seems boring -.-...I dun rly noe wad to blog bout now..=/ i guess i'll just talk bout ytd. It rly didn't feel like saturday. I had to go back to sch the whole day. I finish at bout 7+. Then went to mac. On e way there i kept getting suan or dao by the twins n kenneth. I got a feeling my class doesn't rly like me. But who cares. Then i went to talk to analise since she was rather quiet. Was cos she wasn't from our class n got nth to talk bout. She's a secetriat tat i met while slackng in the leaders network. (it' a room for leaders) Her name rly cool rite? I was like, " hey your name's rly cool" . Then i saw that her suname was koo. N i was like okayy..LOL. Anws, i found out that she was a fellow slacker ^^....wait.....tat's not a good thing...-.-....At mac, i onli bought a coffee cos i was havin dinner at home. I spent motof e time talking to analise. Quite fun to talk to her. The other say we in a world of our own. I tried talking to them they oso dao mi -.-..So wad's e point. lol. My first impression of her was vry different from wad i found her to b afterwards. She looked more innocent at first. Lol.
Dedication
Jean/Kiko
I'd like to thank you for being a good frined to my despite all the things that have happened. I noe that i can count on eu for support and advise whenever i need. Thank you for all that you've done. Hmm...according to other ppls dedications, i'm supposed to say when i met u or how i got to noe eu....but i can't rmb...=X. Lolz Cya soon
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