High A Moment, Depressed Another...

=/... Had mood swings today...Felt depressed, then okay, then depressed and so on...Haix... You would have thought that ppl become more mature when they reach jc. Guess not. Well for some anw...haix...i think i jus lost a fren today ...i've got alot of frens in jj. but vry few close 1s...i think got onli 2... haix....i guess it's btr like tat. i doubt ppl will like mi if they get to rly noe mi. =/ been rly upset recently. Which caused mi to go into irritating mood....I've been trying to get a grip on myself. But i keep seeing things tat cause mi to feel worse, hearing things tat discourage mi...It's just so hard...so confusing...so damned irritating,,, =/...i rly dun wanna be emo... but i can't seem to help it...some ppl may wonder y i can seem to jus go to a random person who's alone n strike up a conv. It's cos i noe how horrible the feeling of loneliness feels. All those times when i just sit in the canteen on my own n ppl dun seem to notice me....I jus keep wishing tat some1 will just come n talk to mi n be concerned as to why i look so dwn. Maybe some do but i'm just too moody to notice n end up chasing them away...Haix~~