I was blog hopping recently u know what's the part of other people's blog that i hate the most? The tagbox or maybe the vist counters makes me feel so pathetic about my blog no one comes or at least tags maybe my posts are not emo enough. Even those i consider frens don't tag too, kind of makes me want to question their friendship. I was kind of thinking about my friends. I don even if i should consider them my friends. I don really need friends or maybe i don really want them.Why? I have never been given priority. i don't have a 'best friend'. My so called closest friend is a traitor. Well that generally summarises why i don't need friends. I'm not against the concept of friends i just don't need/want them. They cause me more pain then joy. You may say friends provide comfort, support, companionship well i've never truely recieved any of these. I feel tat my "friends" jus need me for something not cause they like my company. Honestly i think that people gt lots of tags cause they crap about how bad their life is n there will always be people that come by n say "cheer up" etc then i go look n at the post n usually i'll b like big deal. One example i saw someone's blog praising someone about her 'continuing life after set back' i'm honestly thinking big deal it's just ONE u noe how many i have. Still who cares life sucks. If your reading this tag my blog i don't care if your cursing me or whatever jus tag.

no one noes me

sianz jus finished my ve project n decided to blog...i wish i had someon who truely knows me, somone i can tell everyting to thing tat i can't tell friends...ok fine i want a gf those r e reasons i mean i think none of my friends truely noes me well though i rather keep it that way n i there are so many things tat i need o tell someone but i don't trust anyone enouh to tell sighz i guess this is the side efect of going through an endless amount of articles on marriage =_= sianz anyway todae waz borin as usual slacked after sch went kfc n ea family feast wif joel rachel dinah hao jie louis n most importantly timmy n his wallet lolz then went library n met wy after tat didsome lame suff lyk point at e sky n lookin to c if anyone looked too lolz then came home ZzZzZ

so sad the judges todae all gt prob one write down class oso write down wrong should be e2 nt e4 T.T anywayz had fun during n after tat n bonded alot too so the cheer compititon waz nt completely useless wellz after cheer comp had lunch wif hao jie n quite a few people then went bowling it waz damn fun pics below

mac =p

cheering on e way to csc lol

i look lyk such a retard

happy good fridae =) sianz todae go plae bball wif wen yew sianz end up no 1 plae go there dun noe 4 wat then went kfc after tat stupid abigail go take my jacket of e seat n go sit as if tat area nt crammed enough lolz all ur fault cause me to choke on my food lolz k lah oso my fault lah go take up so much space stupid gurls(4gt e names) go anyhow take pic hate eu :P lolz sianz e trip waz so borin kinda regreted goin anywayz tmr gt cheer practise GO E2!!!

vry tired ZzZzZ so nt bloggin todae

wahh todae so fun 6 periods no teacher =) e maths phy n chem gt so 'high' at cheer i think we're gonna win tis year =P the we go run around e lvl during our 'break' shouting : E2 E2 GO!! damn funny then after went home wif wen yew then he psed me at e mrt had to go take back wif abigail n ended up "aruguing" bout whose class is better at e cheer i think everyone waz lyk starung at us i think mostly me lah cause i waz talking damn loudly lolz

hmmm now dat i think about it i'm pretty sure it's a prank i mean tat person send message i still need 5 min to decifer it i mean wat does 4om mean (turns out it's from =_=) i doubt tat gurls really go send message until so liddat 1 sianz i don even if e person is real if u are n ur reading tis call me NOW if ur some guy n ur plaeing a prank i'll kill u so u better start praying tat i don find eu

=) i feel so happy some gurl said she admired me =) nvr tot anyone would admire me lolz though tis could be some prank plaed by some loser =( ah well i'll assume the best 4 tis sighz she won tell me who she is T.T

ZzZzZ so tired this week so sian not holidae still giv assignments T.T although this week waz quite fun had e games dae for e kids at tehban gardens sighz todae went plae bowling gt 3 strikes in a row first time in my life then plaed dota and bllied benedict =) ended up l8 fer youth then nic go sae tat he found my blog most probably through maxine n oso sae tat it vry "wat" wonder wat tat mean lolz sianz had to sign up fer bb/youth cip/camp thing todae nic most probably signed up cause sherilyn waz goin =P lolz
to nic: i don noe y u avoid e subject so much i mean there nothing wrong wif lyking a gurl mah a say something bout it u so pissed already =P lolz

waz i feel soooo tired i think being a sec 4 is starting to stress me out sighz anywayz i think i can cope so it's not too bad...more difficult matters as usual concerns a gurl =_= sighz i really don wanna get rejected again still... i'm not sure if i should chase her i don even ne her personally although i find her quite cute sighz

wahh once again i nvr update fer soo long sighz e adam khoo workshop waz great vry touching sighz i feel so sad now so lonely sighz i feel so pathetic daedreaming bout a sec three girl sighz

sighz i've seroiusly been usy recently haven't had time to post sighz i guess i'm most like ly gonna post on week ends onli anywayz m week waz ok sighz i'm not sure if i should go chase this gurl i'm intrested in for one i don have time 2 ask her out on a date cause i gt stuff on for every dae except mondae n she's nt free on mondaes...T.T sianz...anywayz i'm lookin 4ward 2 the workshop on mondae =)

6 daes since i posted...so busy these few dae especially valentine's dae where timmiy gave pei yun a teddy bear n got rejected how sad anywayz i didn't really do much gave a rose to this cute girl i c on the bus quite often sighz feel so sleepy ZzZzZ...

tired...vry tired

waah so long nvr blog mainly cause of chinese new year well the eve i played majong at my cousin's house ,samantha, till 4 am poor neighbours lol nxt dae played black jack till 1 2nd the same ZzZzZzZzZ wah damn tired...sighz anyway collected $170 nt much but it's ok i have no idea how some people have the patience to type every single thing they did each dae maybe i shold do tat too:
6.07:woke up walked 11 steps to the bathroom
6.08 brushed my teeth
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lol then maybe my blog will be nicer =_= anyway gonna go maple now bb

T.T punished by mr chia todae sighz i'm sure every1 noe the reason nvr pass up homework...again...sighz sry wen yew psed u cause gt caught...sianz i don noe if every time i lyk a gurl is b'cos i really lyk her or b'cos i jus wanna have a gf for the sake of having one...i think it's the latter T.T

sianz...todae gt caught by mrs tn cause of attire T.T 1 hour dc...anywayz went out wif amanda wen yew jonathan abigail n her bf erm peter i think lolz anyway waz acting damn gay wif jonathan i love u john lolz i think i'm turning gay =_=...hmmm nthing much else happened

mood:mixed emotions

sighz todae again nthing much happened went wif wen yew n amanda... didn't do much wif them anywayz if u see my blog as a jumbled up mess erm...i'm oso nt sure wat to cause some people c it as normal but some don bugger have to go change blogskin again anywayz for those irritating people who keep disturbing me bout liking abigail u can stop now cause i've givin up on her n resume when i've found someone else oso stop bugging abigail i noe it's fun i like doing things like tat too but it's gt nothing to do wif her stop keep r comments to me pleaze...hmmm...nthing else already i guess...kz c u another time bah...

mood:sleepy

sighz haven't done much tis weekend...i miss my frens T.T...=_=lolz sighz my blog's dead...r.i.p. lol i can't help thinking bout her i try not to but i still do i hate myself sighz i seriously don noe wat to do...

mood:depressed

sighz todae damn sian gt to sch damn early todae...at assembly mrs tan talked our whole reading period...waz talking to wen yew todae's his one month anniversary made some card for amanda then she gt him a small btl of stars of smthing lyk tat...how sweet...sigh lucky guy...he's currently celebrating his one month while i'm here wondering y i don't even have one dae lolz sighz...well about less depressing matters owned todae at dota for once tinker rules=)...odae waz m sis' first dae at her cca gb...sighz i hate every one in my class...friggin b****es...

i hate wimps who flame people n don state their names...if ur so much of a chicken don bother flaming people loser...sighz anyway i'm still in still in a state of depression/confusion lolz...i doubt u come to my blog no one come 2 my blog still...i hate being kept in the dark...not being told wat's goin on not being responded to...sighz...ever been rejected? do u remeber how it feels like? take tat and times 10 tat's how i feel now...sighz every good or honorable thing i do is nvr known to anyone execpt those of whom wat i do is concerned...