I Need Someone To Hold T.T
Todae
Gave up trying to edit e previous blogskin -.- anw didn't do much todae. Slacked alot.
Thoughts
Felt really lonely in the morning. I miss her. -.- As usual. I wish i could just call n talk to her but i don reallt have excuse. N i can't sae "i just wanted to talk to eu" cos my mind was abit blank todae n i wouldn't have anything to talk bout...-.- Then again it's highly likely she'll do all the talking. But i doubt she'll want to talk to mi anwway. I was looking back at my old posts, i feel really stupid. The way i write seems lyk a sec 1. Ah well can't do anything bout it. Anw most of the time i blog is when i'm emo, I find tat it's cos i got no one to turn to. No one i can just bother in the middle of the night to talk to cos i'm feeling lonely. It kinda sux but i'm used to it. I miss the time when i was with my x. It was fun. But...i wasn't meant to be...It hurt so much 4 mi to end it but i jus had to. Nonetheless i miss the times when i had someone i could care for tat much...Is it so wrong to want to be in a relationship? okay i don noe y i just asked myself tat. No one really condemned mi about it. Nvm it fits the "emo" mood -.- Zzz i really lyk her. But she'll nvr lyk mi. No one did (almost). Tis just another one of times. Ah well i'm used to rejection. Used to the pain. It sux. N it'll hurt. But i'm used to it.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Time Will Tell
Todae
Had Phy paper. Was okay. Had dinner wif silvia n gang. I don noe y i went wif them -.-
Thots
Okayy. Tis all the pink is startin to irritate mi. Unless someone saes he/she lyks e skin i'm changing it soon. Zzz. Anw it's kinda awkward when she noes n i noe she noes. It's even more awkward when everyone else noes -.- lyf sux. haiixx. Wad should i do bout it nooww T.T someone help mii. Plss. I wish i was a gurl maybe things would be easier. Wait, now tat just sounds gay -.- wth is wrong wif mi.
Todae
Had Phy paper. Was okay. Had dinner wif silvia n gang. I don noe y i went wif them -.-
Thots
Okayy. Tis all the pink is startin to irritate mi. Unless someone saes he/she lyks e skin i'm changing it soon. Zzz. Anw it's kinda awkward when she noes n i noe she noes. It's even more awkward when everyone else noes -.- lyf sux. haiixx. Wad should i do bout it nooww T.T someone help mii. Plss. I wish i was a gurl maybe things would be easier. Wait, now tat just sounds gay -.- wth is wrong wif mi.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Love Story
Todae
I woke up at bout 9.30 but i jus couldn't make myself move off the bed -.- studied abit then slacked. I went to my grandmother's house 4 dinner. Her food is the best.
Thoughts
Was listening to Taylor Swift's Love Story. Makes me think bout a lot of things n wish for even more. The media player was on shuffle n the next song was Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings. It's lyk hearing bout a relationship from the gurl then the guy. Go listen n u'll noe. I feel btr then yesterdae. Still kinda emo. But better nonetheless. Was reading jokes on the net yesterdae. Kinda cheered mi up. I wish someone would call or msg mi. Maybe ask how i am. May post again later.
Todae
I woke up at bout 9.30 but i jus couldn't make myself move off the bed -.- studied abit then slacked. I went to my grandmother's house 4 dinner. Her food is the best.
Thoughts
Was listening to Taylor Swift's Love Story. Makes me think bout a lot of things n wish for even more. The media player was on shuffle n the next song was Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings. It's lyk hearing bout a relationship from the gurl then the guy. Go listen n u'll noe. I feel btr then yesterdae. Still kinda emo. But better nonetheless. Was reading jokes on the net yesterdae. Kinda cheered mi up. I wish someone would call or msg mi. Maybe ask how i am. May post again later.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Lethargic And Lonely.
Todae
Went 4 Phy. Met timmy on B-net.
Thoughts
I'm gonna start another private blog jus 4 the fun of it. Asked to be invited. Anw, i feel damn lonely... I wish i had someone...Okay i'm gonna stop crapping bout my oh so pathetic lyf n maybe talk bout more intresting stuff.....okay..i can't think of anything intresting...nvm..i wish i had someone who i could talk to bout everything as in i can tell the person my completem, honest opinion. Lyk a vry good fren or a gf zzz i doubt i'll get either anytime soon. There was one who fit the earlier postition, but he didn't consider mi that much of a fren. Maybe he did, maybe it was my fault tat were not frens anymore. Doesn't matter. There's another one, who i could talk to about alot of things, tat person cared bout mi followed mi when i was upset n tried to help. Back then i just brushed tat person away. Then things happened n we stopped talking after awhile. Tat person has btr friends then mi i guess. For the second part i had one. Maybe i shouldn't have had her. The relationship was doomed for failure but i was to naive to see it. I just rushed in. It was fun. I was really happy for tat point of time. It was joy beyond wat i had ever felt before. But i could not continue. We parted ways. I felt more pain then i had ever felt before. Not only did tat relationship cause me pain at the end but it caused me hunger for tat joy even more then i did before. That ecstatic feeling was lyk a drug. Once i had a taste i wanted more n more...Okay i may be goin into an emo mood 4 the nxt few daes so my following posts may be extremely negative n sometimes untrue. I feel lyk i jus wrote a litrature piece -.- wth.
Todae
Went 4 Phy. Met timmy on B-net.
Thoughts
I'm gonna start another private blog jus 4 the fun of it. Asked to be invited. Anw, i feel damn lonely... I wish i had someone...Okay i'm gonna stop crapping bout my oh so pathetic lyf n maybe talk bout more intresting stuff.....okay..i can't think of anything intresting...nvm..i wish i had someone who i could talk to bout everything as in i can tell the person my completem, honest opinion. Lyk a vry good fren or a gf zzz i doubt i'll get either anytime soon. There was one who fit the earlier postition, but he didn't consider mi that much of a fren. Maybe he did, maybe it was my fault tat were not frens anymore. Doesn't matter. There's another one, who i could talk to about alot of things, tat person cared bout mi followed mi when i was upset n tried to help. Back then i just brushed tat person away. Then things happened n we stopped talking after awhile. Tat person has btr friends then mi i guess. For the second part i had one. Maybe i shouldn't have had her. The relationship was doomed for failure but i was to naive to see it. I just rushed in. It was fun. I was really happy for tat point of time. It was joy beyond wat i had ever felt before. But i could not continue. We parted ways. I felt more pain then i had ever felt before. Not only did tat relationship cause me pain at the end but it caused me hunger for tat joy even more then i did before. That ecstatic feeling was lyk a drug. Once i had a taste i wanted more n more...Okay i may be goin into an emo mood 4 the nxt few daes so my following posts may be extremely negative n sometimes untrue. I feel lyk i jus wrote a litrature piece -.- wth.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Life's Short
Todae
Hitched a ride from Tim. Had my Eng papers. Was kinda okay. After tat had an announcement. Then went subway wif my mom.
Thoughts
Maybe there r somethings tat i have been immature about. Things tat not should have needed an incident for me to realise. I should take a look at my life. Think bout where it's goin. Nt jus academically, but also socially. I should talk to him. N her too. No sil not the *****. The other gurl of whom i will not write the name out.
Todae
Hitched a ride from Tim. Had my Eng papers. Was kinda okay. After tat had an announcement. Then went subway wif my mom.
Thoughts
Maybe there r somethings tat i have been immature about. Things tat not should have needed an incident for me to realise. I should take a look at my life. Think bout where it's goin. Nt jus academically, but also socially. I should talk to him. N her too. No sil not the *****. The other gurl of whom i will not write the name out.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Mood Swing Over. Chem Paper Owned =D
Todae
Went sch at bout 11 to cram. No use 1 -.- all the diff stuff tat i crap nvr come out. Everything tat came out all damn easy. Good 4 mi anw. After tat went wif sil n jean to west mall then met louis zhong han n terrance. Went off wif them to sub even tho onli i eat -.- lol had fun. Qn. Wat is a noble gas. Louis' ans: a king farting -.- wth. altho it is kinda funny 4 those who noe the actual meaning which is an element in the 8th period of the periodic table.
Thoughts
Feelin btr than my last post. Had a bad mood swing, felt super negative about everything. Who cares if i'm being made use of. After all everyone makes use of everyone else. Eu hang out wif friends cos their fun to be wif. Etc etc. Random: Saw her at sch todae. She looked cute -.- wth is wrong wif mi. STUDY!!! Zzz distractions.
Todae
Went sch at bout 11 to cram. No use 1 -.- all the diff stuff tat i crap nvr come out. Everything tat came out all damn easy. Good 4 mi anw. After tat went wif sil n jean to west mall then met louis zhong han n terrance. Went off wif them to sub even tho onli i eat -.- lol had fun. Qn. Wat is a noble gas. Louis' ans: a king farting -.- wth. altho it is kinda funny 4 those who noe the actual meaning which is an element in the 8th period of the periodic table.
Thoughts
Feelin btr than my last post. Had a bad mood swing, felt super negative about everything. Who cares if i'm being made use of. After all everyone makes use of everyone else. Eu hang out wif friends cos their fun to be wif. Etc etc. Random: Saw her at sch todae. She looked cute -.- wth is wrong wif mi. STUDY!!! Zzz distractions.
Friday, October 17, 2008
I Hate All Of You.
Todae
Went wif silvia to study at mac she was LATE!! lolz anw met jean shen n fiona thr. After tat i went 4 phy most of e2 not thr -.- zzz i go thr onli 4 the cro part. After tat went to west mall. Spaced out on the way thr. was thinking bout stuff. After tat wanted to talk bout it to a friend of mine. But she wasn't free. Zzz i sms oso can sms wrong -.- damned fone. Now she most probably mad at mi...
Thoughts
I'm sick n tired of eu. Now tat i think bout it ur just as bad as him. Don't eu want something from mi too? Eu claimed tat he was just making use of mi. Don't eu want to too? At least it was fun when i was wif him. Don't tell mi ur helping mi out of ur goodwill. I noe u'll want something back from mi. Now that i think about it. How many ppl actually befriended mi cos they liked mi? Most just have ulterior motive. Want mi to go do tis or help wif tat. Now to another person. I tot u were my friend. That eu sincerely cared about mi. I guess not. Not after eu brushed mi off so coldly. U'll onli bother about mi when it benefits u rite? Isn't tat y eu came in the first place? I hate you all.
Todae
Went wif silvia to study at mac she was LATE!! lolz anw met jean shen n fiona thr. After tat i went 4 phy most of e2 not thr -.- zzz i go thr onli 4 the cro part. After tat went to west mall. Spaced out on the way thr. was thinking bout stuff. After tat wanted to talk bout it to a friend of mine. But she wasn't free. Zzz i sms oso can sms wrong -.- damned fone. Now she most probably mad at mi...
Thoughts
I'm sick n tired of eu. Now tat i think bout it ur just as bad as him. Don't eu want something from mi too? Eu claimed tat he was just making use of mi. Don't eu want to too? At least it was fun when i was wif him. Don't tell mi ur helping mi out of ur goodwill. I noe u'll want something back from mi. Now that i think about it. How many ppl actually befriended mi cos they liked mi? Most just have ulterior motive. Want mi to go do tis or help wif tat. Now to another person. I tot u were my friend. That eu sincerely cared about mi. I guess not. Not after eu brushed mi off so coldly. U'll onli bother about mi when it benefits u rite? Isn't tat y eu came in the first place? I hate you all.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
I Miss You
Todaae
Went sch. Had ICE-CREAM at swensens =D Went 4 night study.
Thoughs
Cos my blog's not private i can't afford the luxury of putting ur name. Anw eu should noe who eu are.
To the person who blogged bout mi:
I noe i can't stop eu from unleashing ur wrath upon tat person. But honestly is tat who eu should be targeting? Fine she has a sucky attitute. But will u actually care if she wasn't wif him? He's the one who caused all the trouble n eu simply sae "he isn't tat great" c'mon get real. Eu even said tat he's done alot of crappy things to mi n yet eu pin all the blame on her. He's the ****ing a*****e. Ur jus pissed cos she was wif him. She wasn't even the one who went 4 him. It was the other way round kay? I'm sorry if it sounds harsh but seriously this is wat it is. Ur refusing to blame him cos eu haven't got over him.
Todaae
Went sch. Had ICE-CREAM at swensens =D Went 4 night study.
Thoughs
Cos my blog's not private i can't afford the luxury of putting ur name. Anw eu should noe who eu are.
To the person who blogged bout mi:
I noe i can't stop eu from unleashing ur wrath upon tat person. But honestly is tat who eu should be targeting? Fine she has a sucky attitute. But will u actually care if she wasn't wif him? He's the one who caused all the trouble n eu simply sae "he isn't tat great" c'mon get real. Eu even said tat he's done alot of crappy things to mi n yet eu pin all the blame on her. He's the ****ing a*****e. Ur jus pissed cos she was wif him. She wasn't even the one who went 4 him. It was the other way round kay? I'm sorry if it sounds harsh but seriously this is wat it is. Ur refusing to blame him cos eu haven't got over him.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
It Will Nvr Happen
Todaae n Yesterdae
Didn't post yesterdae cos was too lazy. Yesterdae i went sch at bout 1 then realised tat phy was postponed to fri -.- I must have been sleeping when Aw said tat. Anw then i went to study at mac wif Jean n Rach. Zzz I tot tat the mac tat they were studying at wasn't the one close to west mall n i blur blur walked ALL the way thr in the rain -.- . Then i wait 4 lyk 20 min msg them oso no reply. Felt lyk an idiot. Then walk all the way back n saw them at west mall mac -.- ****. Anw studied wif them then Hui Shan came. After tat i went 4 night study.
Todae i went to sch at bout 11 i think. Brought my laptop. Gt stolen by the gurls i was sitting wif zzz go take my laptop anyhow plae music. Anw then gt back report card. Damn pathetic results. Was the same as sec 3 -.- . Went 4 tuition after eng remedial.
Thoughts
Everything is happening again. -.- I can just c the ending. Rejection. Again. Y do i keep trying? Okay rhetorical Qn. I noe y. So tat i can find someone who loves mi. Tats all i want. Y is it so hard? -.- lyf suxx.
Todaae n Yesterdae
Didn't post yesterdae cos was too lazy. Yesterdae i went sch at bout 1 then realised tat phy was postponed to fri -.- I must have been sleeping when Aw said tat. Anw then i went to study at mac wif Jean n Rach. Zzz I tot tat the mac tat they were studying at wasn't the one close to west mall n i blur blur walked ALL the way thr in the rain -.- . Then i wait 4 lyk 20 min msg them oso no reply. Felt lyk an idiot. Then walk all the way back n saw them at west mall mac -.- ****. Anw studied wif them then Hui Shan came. After tat i went 4 night study.
Todae i went to sch at bout 11 i think. Brought my laptop. Gt stolen by the gurls i was sitting wif zzz go take my laptop anyhow plae music. Anw then gt back report card. Damn pathetic results. Was the same as sec 3 -.- . Went 4 tuition after eng remedial.
Thoughts
Everything is happening again. -.- I can just c the ending. Rejection. Again. Y do i keep trying? Okay rhetorical Qn. I noe y. So tat i can find someone who loves mi. Tats all i want. Y is it so hard? -.- lyf suxx.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
You All Were Right Bout him
Todae (part 2)
Went for tuiton. Came home. Went for bible study wif family.
Thoughts
I guess i was wrong. I didn't think tat he was tat much of jerk. Well i did think he was a jerk but i didn't think he was tat much of one. Ah well i guess i'll just have to find some other friends to spend my hols wif... I doubt anybody will ask me to go out wif them...Saad...Once again she creeps into my head. I wish i could spend part of my hols wif her even as jus a friend. But i doubt it'll happen...I'm pretty sure she busy wif stuff n other friends. Even if she is free i don think i'm anywhere close to the top of her "friends to go out wif" list...i guess i'll just hide in my lil hole n emo, oblivious to the world.
Todae (part 2)
Went for tuiton. Came home. Went for bible study wif family.
Thoughts
I guess i was wrong. I didn't think tat he was tat much of jerk. Well i did think he was a jerk but i didn't think he was tat much of one. Ah well i guess i'll just have to find some other friends to spend my hols wif... I doubt anybody will ask me to go out wif them...Saad...Once again she creeps into my head. I wish i could spend part of my hols wif her even as jus a friend. But i doubt it'll happen...I'm pretty sure she busy wif stuff n other friends. Even if she is free i don think i'm anywhere close to the top of her "friends to go out wif" list...i guess i'll just hide in my lil hole n emo, oblivious to the world.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Loneliness Sets In
Today
Went to father's office. nthing else -.-
Thoughts
I could rite a love letter wif wad i'm doing now -.- : I'm sitting here on a boring saturday afternoon thinking bout eu...etc. -.- wth. Anw i serious am. I can't really think bout anything else. I can't even study zzz. Of all damn times. Y??? T.T nothing good will ever come out of this desire. I'll get nothing but disappointment after awhile. Haiix. I kinda wish i still had sch. At least i may be able to catch a minor glimpse of her or have a short chat. I hate tis. Y do i always feel lyk tat?
Today
Went to father's office. nthing else -.-
Thoughts
I could rite a love letter wif wad i'm doing now -.- : I'm sitting here on a boring saturday afternoon thinking bout eu...etc. -.- wth. Anw i serious am. I can't really think bout anything else. I can't even study zzz. Of all damn times. Y??? T.T nothing good will ever come out of this desire. I'll get nothing but disappointment after awhile. Haiix. I kinda wish i still had sch. At least i may be able to catch a minor glimpse of her or have a short chat. I hate tis. Y do i always feel lyk tat?
Friday, October 10, 2008
It'll Take Time
Todaaee
I don noe go sch for wad todae. Onli had lyk an hour of classes -.- . anw went for eng intensive. I found out i got completely owned by a gurl in L1R5 T.T time to work damn hard. Must own her muhahaha. -.- Anw then i had a chat wif jean earlier lolz she won shut up. I guess tat's good cos i didn't have much to sae so jus listen.
Thoughts
YAY my feeling were finally correct =D...wait...tat's not a good thing... -.- wth ah well i was expecting it. I shouldn't expect more then tis outcome. Always has been, always will be.
Todaaee
I don noe go sch for wad todae. Onli had lyk an hour of classes -.- . anw went for eng intensive. I found out i got completely owned by a gurl in L1R5 T.T time to work damn hard. Must own her muhahaha. -.- Anw then i had a chat wif jean earlier lolz she won shut up. I guess tat's good cos i didn't have much to sae so jus listen.
Thoughts
YAY my feeling were finally correct =D...wait...tat's not a good thing... -.- wth ah well i was expecting it. I shouldn't expect more then tis outcome. Always has been, always will be.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Which Path Should I Take?
Todaaee
Had sch. Then i went for phy intensive cos i need tat A1 thr. Had dinner wif Silvia Larrisa (is tat spelt correct?) Jeanell n Fiona at mos. Had fun was jokin bout loads of stuff. Lyk Fiona n shrek lolz. Anw i went fon night study after tat then caught a ride home wif tim.
Thots
Haix. She doesn't noe. I guess maybe she's oretending not to noe cos she won't lyk mi. Okay i gt a feelin tat postin bout tis will make it damn obvious but heck wif the consequences. Haix. I don't noe. I jus got tis feeling. Then again my "feelings" r usually wrong -.- . anw i went to someone's blog. sil will noe immediately who. I was really irritated bout his attitude haix i can't really blame him cos he doesn't really noe completely y i'm pissed wif him. But still he couldn't even b bothered to ask. Bloody attitude.
Todaaee
Had sch. Then i went for phy intensive cos i need tat A1 thr. Had dinner wif Silvia Larrisa (is tat spelt correct?) Jeanell n Fiona at mos. Had fun was jokin bout loads of stuff. Lyk Fiona n shrek lolz. Anw i went fon night study after tat then caught a ride home wif tim.
Thots
Haix. She doesn't noe. I guess maybe she's oretending not to noe cos she won't lyk mi. Okay i gt a feelin tat postin bout tis will make it damn obvious but heck wif the consequences. Haix. I don't noe. I jus got tis feeling. Then again my "feelings" r usually wrong -.- . anw i went to someone's blog. sil will noe immediately who. I was really irritated bout his attitude haix i can't really blame him cos he doesn't really noe completely y i'm pissed wif him. But still he couldn't even b bothered to ask. Bloody attitude.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
How I Wish Tat Eu Felt The Same Way
Todae
i shan't blog much cos it's late n i nid sleep. Sch was as usual. Gt caught in the rain on e way after intensive. Went 4 tuiton, had headache.
Tots
I don't noe if eu noe how i feel. If eu do i don't think eu feel the same way. haix tat the way of my lyf. I won't ever be happy in terms of my love lyf. Okay it's reall presumptious to say tat. But tat's how i feel. Hopeless. Unloved. Tat y i lyk the song I'm With You by Avril Lavgine. It's about some who lost n waiting for someone to find him/her. Tat's how i interpret it. It's sort of metaphorical to my love lyf.
Todae
i shan't blog much cos it's late n i nid sleep. Sch was as usual. Gt caught in the rain on e way after intensive. Went 4 tuiton, had headache.
Tots
I don't noe if eu noe how i feel. If eu do i don't think eu feel the same way. haix tat the way of my lyf. I won't ever be happy in terms of my love lyf. Okay it's reall presumptious to say tat. But tat's how i feel. Hopeless. Unloved. Tat y i lyk the song I'm With You by Avril Lavgine. It's about some who lost n waiting for someone to find him/her. Tat's how i interpret it. It's sort of metaphorical to my love lyf.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Still Doubtful
Todaee
Was almost late again but heng managed to catch e bus. Wah i todae damn stupid. Go wear PE to sch -.- heng i quickly go change if not every1 will laff at mi. Anw sch was as usual.
After sch i went by Jean's house to pass her hw to her. Was supposed to dumo it in her letter box but the slot wasn't open -.- dots. Anw went up passed it to her n wait 4 lift. I went to look at e view thr for a min. I was lyk wondering wat took the lift so long. Actually there liao but got no sound -.- . Zzz i envy her. The view at 12 floor so nice. i onli got trees to look at on e 2nd floo T.T
Went to sch for abit of Amaths after tat. Then i went for night studys after tat
Thoughts
I'm really confused. I think I'm reading to much into things -.- over reading certain actions. I feel lyk an idiot now. Then again wat if i'm not? Zzz wat r e chance of tat. It's most probably the former option. Haix. I nid a sign!! .... I can jus picture myself in the rain shouting tat lolz. So dramatic. I really hope tat it will happen. I bet all eu poor readers will be wondering wad the crap i'm talking bout n who/wat i'm refering to. Ha. Have fun figuring it out -.- I am so lame. cya all thx 4 e tags =D
Todaee
Was almost late again but heng managed to catch e bus. Wah i todae damn stupid. Go wear PE to sch -.- heng i quickly go change if not every1 will laff at mi. Anw sch was as usual.
After sch i went by Jean's house to pass her hw to her. Was supposed to dumo it in her letter box but the slot wasn't open -.- dots. Anw went up passed it to her n wait 4 lift. I went to look at e view thr for a min. I was lyk wondering wat took the lift so long. Actually there liao but got no sound -.- . Zzz i envy her. The view at 12 floor so nice. i onli got trees to look at on e 2nd floo T.T
Went to sch for abit of Amaths after tat. Then i went for night studys after tat
Thoughts
I'm really confused. I think I'm reading to much into things -.- over reading certain actions. I feel lyk an idiot now. Then again wat if i'm not? Zzz wat r e chance of tat. It's most probably the former option. Haix. I nid a sign!! .... I can jus picture myself in the rain shouting tat lolz. So dramatic. I really hope tat it will happen. I bet all eu poor readers will be wondering wad the crap i'm talking bout n who/wat i'm refering to. Ha. Have fun figuring it out -.- I am so lame. cya all thx 4 e tags =D
Monday, October 6, 2008
Looking 4 Random Ppl To Study Wif
Todaee
Was almost late cos i woke up at 6.35 -.- heng still on time. anw sch was usual. Had a chem test. had to go alll the way up to e4 zzz. Then camped wif sil n shen 4 awhile to help them out then went west mall cos shenlyn nid buy calculator. after tat came home. -.- my lyf is so borin
Thots
I'm gonna trust eu on tis one. Thx 4 helping me. I really appreciate it. N if it really work then i sae eu pro =P.
Todaee
Was almost late cos i woke up at 6.35 -.- heng still on time. anw sch was usual. Had a chem test. had to go alll the way up to e4 zzz. Then camped wif sil n shen 4 awhile to help them out then went west mall cos shenlyn nid buy calculator. after tat came home. -.- my lyf is so borin
Thots
I'm gonna trust eu on tis one. Thx 4 helping me. I really appreciate it. N if it really work then i sae eu pro =P.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Silent Obsession
Todae
Didn't do much todae. Read one of my sis' romance novels. I completed it cos i can nvr leave a book uncompleted no matter how bad it is. I hated it. The ending was happy n so unrealistic. Things like tat will nvr happen to mi. -.- Anw i took an afternoon nap n when i woke up it wasn't afternoon anymore zzz.
Thoughts
I'm still at a loss of wad to do. It kinda sux when thrs no one eu can turn to for advise or at least to confide in? I hate tis love sick feeling this feeling immense loneliness. Looking back i've survived everytime this happened although the feeling sucked. I never seem to learn. I just keep trying n trying n keep getting rejected. Is it worth it? Then again is wrong to want something btr. But it's just a want i'll nvr get. So i guess it's wrong to torture myself lyk tat.But wat if i really do get it? Maybe it's worth torturing myself if there's even a tiny chance. I tell myself tis everytime. Haixx. Y must i be lyk tis? Y must i have such a strong longing for a relationship? ****. Maybe I'll just wait tis one out. I doubt I'll be capable of tat. I'll jus blurt it out n screw something up. Even so i'm afraid of being a lousy boyfriend. I've heard bout guys being unfaithful, possesive. I'm afraid of becoming one...
Todae
Didn't do much todae. Read one of my sis' romance novels. I completed it cos i can nvr leave a book uncompleted no matter how bad it is. I hated it. The ending was happy n so unrealistic. Things like tat will nvr happen to mi. -.- Anw i took an afternoon nap n when i woke up it wasn't afternoon anymore zzz.
Thoughts
I'm still at a loss of wad to do. It kinda sux when thrs no one eu can turn to for advise or at least to confide in? I hate tis love sick feeling this feeling immense loneliness. Looking back i've survived everytime this happened although the feeling sucked. I never seem to learn. I just keep trying n trying n keep getting rejected. Is it worth it? Then again is wrong to want something btr. But it's just a want i'll nvr get. So i guess it's wrong to torture myself lyk tat.But wat if i really do get it? Maybe it's worth torturing myself if there's even a tiny chance. I tell myself tis everytime. Haixx. Y must i be lyk tis? Y must i have such a strong longing for a relationship? ****. Maybe I'll just wait tis one out. I doubt I'll be capable of tat. I'll jus blurt it out n screw something up. Even so i'm afraid of being a lousy boyfriend. I've heard bout guys being unfaithful, possesive. I'm afraid of becoming one...
Friday, October 3, 2008
When Opportunity Presents Itself, Will Eu Go For It?
Todae
Didn't do much. sch was borin but i went to watch house bunny. it was hilarious anw then had tuition then came home zzz
Thots
Ever been in a situation where ur not sure whether or not to do something cos ur afraid? Afraid of rejection, tat ur wrong, tat it really wasn't n opportunity? i'm stuck in one now. between a rock n a hard place -.- fear for loss of a friend fear for the loss of something btr T.T damn my lyf.
Todae
Didn't do much. sch was borin but i went to watch house bunny. it was hilarious anw then had tuition then came home zzz
Thots
Ever been in a situation where ur not sure whether or not to do something cos ur afraid? Afraid of rejection, tat ur wrong, tat it really wasn't n opportunity? i'm stuck in one now. between a rock n a hard place -.- fear for loss of a friend fear for the loss of something btr T.T damn my lyf.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Todaae
todae was an unusual but fun dae. in e morning i went 4 tution. then met up wif beng loon to study. but he had to meet yu xiang so he asked mi along. b4 tat went to mac 4 awhile bu saw some jerk thr. anw yu xiang came n we went n met up wif nick wong thr. then we walked to rail mall to hang out, thr we went to coffee bean. zzz feel so pai seh. we caused a few gurls to be chased out cos they studying thr. anw had one coffee which cost alot. lyk 6 bucks. anw then beng loon suggested we go to the forest behind. so we did. had a nice trek. when goin along one road we saw a short stairs goin over a little ridge. we heard some dog barking so we went to check it out. yu xiang went up saw a dog then slowly backed down. the we started to move away quickly. n guess wat? the bloody dog chased us. -.- okay the dog was harmless n we could have scared it away or beat the crap out of it. but we didn't really expect it so we paniced n ran. the bloody dog chased up all the way up some damn hill. anw then yu xiang ran off to one side i followed but the dog ran cut thru some trees n went towards e way xiang was goin. so i turned back. anw the dog kinda gave up n we got the hell out of thr. n here i was thinking todae would be a dull day -.- . lolz we were considering goin to get some revenge but decided not too. maybe another dae. lolz
Laughter is the best medicine
On Christmas morning a cop on horseback is sitting at a traffic light, and next to him is a kid on his shiny new bike.
The cop says to the kid, "Nice bike you got there. Did Santa bring that to you?"
The kid replies, "Yeah."
The cop says, "Well, next year tell Santa to put a tail-light on that bike."
The cop then proceeds to issue the kid a $20.00 bicycle safety violation ticket.
The kid takes the ticket and before he rides off says, "By the way, that's a nice horse you got there. Did Santa bring that to you?"
Humoring the kid, the cop says, "Yeah, he sure did."
The kid continued, "Well, next year tell Santa to put the dick underneath the horse, instead of on top.
todae was an unusual but fun dae. in e morning i went 4 tution. then met up wif beng loon to study. but he had to meet yu xiang so he asked mi along. b4 tat went to mac 4 awhile bu saw some jerk thr. anw yu xiang came n we went n met up wif nick wong thr. then we walked to rail mall to hang out, thr we went to coffee bean. zzz feel so pai seh. we caused a few gurls to be chased out cos they studying thr. anw had one coffee which cost alot. lyk 6 bucks. anw then beng loon suggested we go to the forest behind. so we did. had a nice trek. when goin along one road we saw a short stairs goin over a little ridge. we heard some dog barking so we went to check it out. yu xiang went up saw a dog then slowly backed down. the we started to move away quickly. n guess wat? the bloody dog chased us. -.- okay the dog was harmless n we could have scared it away or beat the crap out of it. but we didn't really expect it so we paniced n ran. the bloody dog chased up all the way up some damn hill. anw then yu xiang ran off to one side i followed but the dog ran cut thru some trees n went towards e way xiang was goin. so i turned back. anw the dog kinda gave up n we got the hell out of thr. n here i was thinking todae would be a dull day -.- . lolz we were considering goin to get some revenge but decided not too. maybe another dae. lolz
Laughter is the best medicine
On Christmas morning a cop on horseback is sitting at a traffic light, and next to him is a kid on his shiny new bike.
The cop says to the kid, "Nice bike you got there. Did Santa bring that to you?"
The kid replies, "Yeah."
The cop says, "Well, next year tell Santa to put a tail-light on that bike."
The cop then proceeds to issue the kid a $20.00 bicycle safety violation ticket.
The kid takes the ticket and before he rides off says, "By the way, that's a nice horse you got there. Did Santa bring that to you?"
Humoring the kid, the cop says, "Yeah, he sure did."
The kid continued, "Well, next year tell Santa to put the dick underneath the horse, instead of on top.
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