Lethargic And Lonely.

Todae

Went 4 Phy. Met timmy on B-net.

Thoughts

I'm gonna start another private blog jus 4 the fun of it. Asked to be invited. Anw, i feel damn lonely... I wish i had someone...Okay i'm gonna stop crapping bout my oh so pathetic lyf n maybe talk bout more intresting stuff.....okay..i can't think of anything intresting...nvm..i wish i had someone who i could talk to bout everything as in i can tell the person my completem, honest opinion. Lyk a vry good fren or a gf zzz i doubt i'll get either anytime soon. There was one who fit the earlier postition, but he didn't consider mi that much of a fren. Maybe he did, maybe it was my fault tat were not frens anymore. Doesn't matter. There's another one, who i could talk to about alot of things, tat person cared bout mi followed mi when i was upset n tried to help. Back then i just brushed tat person away. Then things happened n we stopped talking after awhile. Tat person has btr friends then mi i guess. For the second part i had one. Maybe i shouldn't have had her. The relationship was doomed for failure but i was to naive to see it. I just rushed in. It was fun. I was really happy for tat point of time. It was joy beyond wat i had ever felt before. But i could not continue. We parted ways. I felt more pain then i had ever felt before. Not only did tat relationship cause me pain at the end but it caused me hunger for tat joy even more then i did before. That ecstatic feeling was lyk a drug. Once i had a taste i wanted more n more...Okay i may be goin into an emo mood 4 the nxt few daes so my following posts may be extremely negative n sometimes untrue. I feel lyk i jus wrote a litrature piece -.- wth.