Silent Obsession

Todae

Didn't do much todae. Read one of my sis' romance novels. I completed it cos i can nvr leave a book uncompleted no matter how bad it is. I hated it. The ending was happy n so unrealistic. Things like tat will nvr happen to mi. -.- Anw i took an afternoon nap n when i woke up it wasn't afternoon anymore zzz.

Thoughts

I'm still at a loss of wad to do. It kinda sux when thrs no one eu can turn to for advise or at least to confide in? I hate tis love sick feeling this feeling immense loneliness. Looking back i've survived everytime this happened although the feeling sucked. I never seem to learn. I just keep trying n trying n keep getting rejected. Is it worth it? Then again is wrong to want something btr. But it's just a want i'll nvr get. So i guess it's wrong to torture myself lyk tat.But wat if i really do get it? Maybe it's worth torturing myself if there's even a tiny chance. I tell myself tis everytime. Haixx. Y must i be lyk tis? Y must i have such a strong longing for a relationship? ****. Maybe I'll just wait tis one out. I doubt I'll be capable of tat. I'll jus blurt it out n screw something up. Even so i'm afraid of being a lousy boyfriend. I've heard bout guys being unfaithful, possesive. I'm afraid of becoming one...