210 Minutes To Midnight

I need to blog more now tat exams are over. Haha. I feel btr in e previous post =). I tend to be bitchy and emo once it passes 2 a.m. Looked a my profile part of my blog. Decided to take away all e wants tat include bgr. So all tat's left under desires is ice cream =). One can nvr have enuff ice cream ^^. Hmm, as for my bgr life, ask mi personally if ur really interested =P. I wonder if ppl from my current class will read tis. If they do they'll most probably come suan me e nxt day. Some anw. Hmm wad should i blog bout =/ How bout you ppl tell me wad you wanna read n i post it bah =)

8 Hours To Freedom

As i look back at my old post, i realize i how pathetic i still am. As much as i would like to think that I've matured I seriously didn't. Well i guess I'm in a pessimistic mood cos it's 4a.m. But i deserve to be in a pessimistic mood! Haha. I'm usually optimistic till it gets on people's nerves. But all in all it's still a farce. Cos i want people to see me as "that happy loser" as compared to "that sad loser". Haha. I'm kinda having an inferiority complex right about now. Comes once in awhile. Well i know when it will come. Can't be helped i guess. Lolz. I don't know why I'm blogging now. Does anyone actually care about all these crap I'm writing? Haix~ I guess I'm hoping people will read this and empathize with me. How pathetic is that? Haha. I miss Timothy. It sucks when your best friend is a few thousand miles away. Wonder if he's havin fun in aussie =/ I have to get back to mugging. cyas

Life Drifts On

It's been epically long since i updated, not really sure what i should be saying. We'll Jc has been tough, i think I'm gonna retain. Well tat is so bad i guess, I'll definitely do very well if that happens. Well, i can really talk much about my social life cos i don't really have one now -.-... only an occasional lunch with a friend, that's bout it. Really miss Tim now that he's a few thousand miles away =/. Well life hasn't really been fun in Jc recently. I don't have anyone i can really talk to bout what real problems are etc. So it can get kinda lonely. When tat happens i just find one of my many friends and bitch to them bout something.. Oh, i've been going out with my cousin quite alot lately. I feel like i've been really blessed to have her. She's one of the few people i can talk to. Went to sp the other day to meet her. Lolz. One of her friend i saw on face book seem reaaaly cute. =X Not supposed to think bout these thing rite bout noe =/ haha.

Special Request Post

This post was requested by a special friend of mine =). Btw, dun expect tat many posts cos of my damned sch T.T.... Haha. Anws, Just got back from m'sia. Boring..... Jus slacked off for 1 week... No motivation to study thr. haha. Although got alot of time to just sit thr and think bout stuff. haha btw, Sil, when u comin? ^^ looking fwd to it =) cya soon. sry my post so short. i rly dun noe wad to put =X. haha

Not Again...

Was drifting thru e net when i found myself here =/... Got hit by a sickness again -.-...the one which i usually fall into. I'm not sure if tis is a passing thing =/. She seems somewhat interested. But could be me reading too much into things. ZzZzZ. But she's really really cute *u*....-.-....Damn. This is an epic waste of time. Anws, went for this SMUN thing. Was extremely fun. Also met her thr -.- argg...How do i get myself in these situations? Darn....

Deaad

My blog is soo dead -.-.. mainly cos no time update. okays. i noe onli eu(jean) read n occasionally silvia. thx for still comin =). hmm i rly dunnoe wad to put. jc's been tiring. finish sch at bout 8.30 everyday. ut it's fun...so far... =/. shld i close dwn my blog? it's gettin rly redundant. hope to cya soon =)

Jean Made Me Do It T.T lolz

10 whats:

1 what is the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
Damn…It’s morning already…

2 what did you do last night?
Chat and facebook

3 what is the most important part of your life right now?
God & School

4 what would you rather be doing right now?
Actually talking to my frens rather then over msn

5 what did you last cry over?
My screwed up finalae

6 what always makes you feel better when you're upset?
Ppl being thr for me =)

7 what are your plans tomorrow?
BLAST! Carnival ^^

8 what are you worried about?
Homework…

9 what are you looking forward to most in this week?
Talking to frens through out e week

10 what are you thinking of right now?
Shopping….

9have-you-evers:

1 liked someone with a girlfriend or boyfriend?
no

2 had your heart broken?
Broken? I’ve nvr rly bothered fixing it =P

3 played on a sports team?
Ehh…Is throwing water bombs a sport?

4 been out of the country?
LOADS

5 been backstabbed by a friend?
Hmm. Kinda. =/

6 had the cops called on you?
Kinda too

7 dated someone younger than you?
Yupp. Haix~

8 read an entire book in one day?
duhhh

9 milked a cow?
o.o LOL nope

8whos:

1 who was the last person you saw?
Mummy =)

2 who was the last person you hugged?
Erm…ppl from e Line camp durin Line nite lolz

3 who was the last person you called?
Timothy

4 who was the last person to call you?
TImothy

5 who was your first crush?
Some gurl from mi pri sch

6 who was the last person to text message you?
Analise Khoo

7 who is the last person you texted?
Analise Khoo

8 who did you last yell at?
Erm..Tee Yang =X

7whens:

1 when was your last shower?
7pm

2 when did you last see your mom?
20 sec ago

3 when was your last hug?
Durin Line nite at Line camp

4 when did you last dress up?
Huh?

5 when was the last time you cried?
Line camp

6 when did you last go to the movie theatre?
Woah. Long long time ago

7 when were you born?
17/11. Rmb it =)

6wheres:

1 where do your best friend live?
I dun have 1

2 where did you last go?
The living room

3 where did you last hang out?
In church. Practicing for this skit/dance thing

4 where do you go to school?
JJC YEAH

5 where is your favourite place to be?
The area outside Ops room. At windows or ledges.

6 where did you sleep last night?
Bed. duhh

5does:

1 like someone right now?
Some ONE

2 they like you too?
Doubt so

3 you ever wish you were someone else?
All the time

4 do you know the muffin man?
The muffin man?

5 does the future scare you?
No. The thought of how uncertain it is excites mi =)

4whys:

1 are you best friends with your best friends?
I dun have 1

2 why did you get a facebook?
How would I noe o.o

3 why did your parents give you the name you have?
Cos they first met in a town call Leuven -.- lolz

4 why are you doing this survey?
Jean told mi to -.-..

3ifs:

1 you could have one superpower, what would it be?
To be anywhr any time. No more taking bus woohoo ^^

2 you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
YES

3 you were stranded on a desert island & could bring one thing what would it be?
Some way to communicate

2would-you-evers:

1 be friends with someone again, who you promised yourself you never would because they were mean to you?
Thr isn’t any1 who has pissed mi off tat much n was my fren =/

2 shave your head to save the person you love?
yupp

LAST 1

1 name a dream you wish to fulfil:
To find some1 I love

I Feel So...Lonely

I wonder why sometimes i have this urge to talk non-stop. It think gets on ppl's nerves. I prefer myself when i'm quiet. But sometimes i jus end up at the other end of the peronality spectrum. I'm feelin rather lonely now. Note lonely. Not sad/emo. Anws. I'm feelin rather confused n unsure. As always. How can 1 be sure of life =). I guess it put's a lil excitement into life. Not knowing wad' gonna happen. Maybe i should jus do things n screw the consequences. Well i've always done tat n i didn't rly like e results =/ Which brings us back to the point which makes life exciting =). Well. Can some come talk to mi? I dun wanna keep goin around to talk to ppl in case i end up irritating them =/ so cyas ppl.

Abit Of Everything

Life has been rather hectic. I've been rly disappointed wif myelf recently. for screwing up my Line camp game and load of other stuff...I rly dun noe myself these days. I dun noe if i'm actually a high enthu frinedly person. Or a quiet person who keeps to himself. Most ppl will think it's the forst. But ppl dun rly see me when i'm in e 2nd part. I dun think i'm emoing. I'm jus being me. Yes, i'm actually a vry quiet person. But my other personality is so extreme that i dun noe wad my acutal personality is. Is my quiet part rly part of me or was i rly emoing. I doubt so cos i usually dun feel sad. I feel...myself. But the high part is oso rly natural =/ ah well. it's not like it cauing any probs. Gosh. i hope i do vry vry vry well in e banni house council. I'd btr do well....Haix =/ cya ppl

Utterly Horrible Week

It's been 1 of the worst weeks of my life... Some many damned things happened. In practitcally every expect some thing bad happened. Love studies friends etc. There are ppl who think i'm irritating for being me. Wat worse she tell mi tat her thinking like tat is ot a big dea to mi. As if. Then i've got a frined who's seemed to care less n less bout me... She's too preoccupied wif other stuff....Then thr another 1 who oso hardly talks to mi nowadays. zzz haix.....

Stressed~

Haix...I've got so much homework but i just can't seem to do any...my mind can't think. Thr are so much other stuff tat's on my mind...1 of my closest frens seems to be in a horrible mood and i can't seem to be able to cheer her up. Some1 seems to be ignoring me. I dun have any1 i can rly talk to now =/.....haixx~ Daaaaaamn......i jus saw my fren's msn pic wif his gf....now i feel even more depressed T.T zzz...It made me think bout even more stuff....which leads to even more uncertainty....eek....Haix. my blog so borin...no pics...i wanna go camwhore T.T....wth is wrong wif me......

Confused And Unsure

=/. Been feeling less moody n sad. But not exactly rly happy either. Jus somewhr in the middle. Now i feel so blur. I dun noe wad i should feel, wad i should do and wad all that's happening means. I jus feel so confused. =X. Arg... I wonder whether wad i'm feeling is correct or isit simply another rash notion. I wonder wad she's thinking... I wonder what in the world i as doin when i did tat! T.T Goshh. I'm thinking too much... Maybe i'm jus overreacting. As always. -.-...zzz. lolz

High A Moment, Depressed Another...

=/... Had mood swings today...Felt depressed, then okay, then depressed and so on...Haix... You would have thought that ppl become more mature when they reach jc. Guess not. Well for some anw...haix...i think i jus lost a fren today ...i've got alot of frens in jj. but vry few close 1s...i think got onli 2... haix....i guess it's btr like tat. i doubt ppl will like mi if they get to rly noe mi. =/ been rly upset recently. Which caused mi to go into irritating mood....I've been trying to get a grip on myself. But i keep seeing things tat cause mi to feel worse, hearing things tat discourage mi...It's just so hard...so confusing...so damned irritating,,, =/...i rly dun wanna be emo... but i can't seem to help it...some ppl may wonder y i can seem to jus go to a random person who's alone n strike up a conv. It's cos i noe how horrible the feeling of loneliness feels. All those times when i just sit in the canteen on my own n ppl dun seem to notice me....I jus keep wishing tat some1 will just come n talk to mi n be concerned as to why i look so dwn. Maybe some do but i'm just too moody to notice n end up chasing them away...Haix~~

Are We Rly Similar?

Haix..I feel so tired. Jc is killin. I went back to bvss for awhile to get cert. Mine for some reason hadn't reached yet -.-.. anws, met quite a few frensthr. eg. fiona , daryl. ended up taking bus wif a group of random sec 3s of which i only noe 1 of em. Was catching up wif abit of gossip n givin them abit of e history of past events concerning my batch LOL. Ended up late in meeting my good fren tim cos 1 of e bus tat came by just drove past -.- wad de.... Anws, i felt bored so i took some personlity test i found on wen yi's blog. Some part rather true some part not some part idk =/

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. (Kinda true. I can listen well. Although i don't noe bout e hiding myself so much, I've changed myself so much to fit e demands of society i don even noe which part of me is my "true self")

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (Somewhat true =/)

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straight forwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. ( o.o cool. although it isn't rly happening right bout now T.T. Lol)

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. (o.O rly? lol)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. (kind of)

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. ( well not rly =/)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (indeed, i've vented my anger on quite some ppl in camp =X sry to all of which i did)

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust. (So so true)

Roller Coaster


Firstly, some pics from LINE camp

Grace. Btw, i barely noe her. Dun assume anything. Jus a fellow camwhorer ^^

Amanda. E almuni which came to help us =)

Mr Liao (Great Teacher Simon LOL), Uma (emcee) n Asief (night games ic)

Same ppl

Mr liao ( again ) Liyana (my 2nd ic) n Glenn (or zhong yan)
Glenn looks so dead. LOL

Mr liao (AGAIN) lol. Fitri. Zhen Yu aka Tom n Aik Song the Council President

Grace again

Soon Li

Me n Kenneth ^^


Acbc =P

This camp was rly memorable. It was so different doing thing from the point of view of aplanning committee. I'll nvr 4get this camp =)

Lazy

I feel to lazy to post or update.........cyas............

Finally Some1 I Can Talk To =)

Firstly, lemme start off with something which i'm rather disturbed bout. It bout a classmate of mine, rodger. I'm pretty sure h harbours some kind a of a dislike for me. Of which i'm perfectly okay with. I'm used to it. But what troubles me is something which he did. He's the class treasurer. Hence he collects money for everything. when he was collecting asking to collect money, i asked to see what i was paying for. Maybe it was my tone or something but he seemed rather irritated n claimed that i was trying cause trouble for him and that y should i care since i was not under e financial assitance progamme. Honestly, i wasn't trying to cause trouble or anything. Maybe my tone wasnt tat nice cos i was in a bit of a hurry to go. N even tho i'm not under a FAS, i do wish to noe bout what i'm paying for as i don't like to squander my parent's money uneccesarily. =/ Anws, made quite a good friend today. For ppl tat saw me at Jp today we're nthing more then frens -.-...dun giv me that look. Finally some1 i can rly talk to =). i'll elaborate more nxt time. dad's rushin mi. cya all

1 More Week Till I'm Screwed

It's been soo long since i've blogged. Been rly busy lately. Everyday reach home damn late. The only day which i went home late n it wasn't cos of planning com was ytd. Cos i mugged a bit at west mall mac. It's been so hectic recently. But it's been fun lah. Somewhat. Well compared to other committees n the facilitators it seems boring -.-...I dun rly noe wad to blog bout now..=/ i guess i'll just talk bout ytd. It rly didn't feel like saturday. I had to go back to sch the whole day. I finish at bout 7+. Then went to mac. On e way there i kept getting suan or dao by the twins n kenneth. I got a feeling my class doesn't rly like me. But who cares. Then i went to talk to analise since she was rather quiet. Was cos she wasn't from our class n got nth to talk bout. She's a secetriat tat i met while slackng in the leaders network. (it' a room for leaders) Her name rly cool rite? I was like, " hey your name's rly cool" . Then i saw that her suname was koo. N i was like okayy..LOL. Anws, i found out that she was a fellow slacker ^^....wait.....tat's not a good thing...-.-....At mac, i onli bought a coffee cos i was havin dinner at home. I spent motof e time talking to analise. Quite fun to talk to her. The other say we in a world of our own. I tried talking to them they oso dao mi -.-..So wad's e point. lol. My first impression of her was vry different from wad i found her to b afterwards. She looked more innocent at first. Lol.

Dedication

Jean/Kiko

I'd like to thank you for being a good frined to my despite all the things that have happened. I noe that i can count on eu for support and advise whenever i need. Thank you for all that you've done. Hmm...according to other ppls dedications, i'm supposed to say when i met u or how i got to noe eu....but i can't rmb...=X. Lolz Cya soon

Busy Busy Busy



Gosh. It's 11.30 n i still got a proposal to finish. T.T I shan't blog so much. I still got a very bad cough. Tho no more fever. I got so much thing to sayy. But no time T.T I hope i'm free soon =/



P.S. Thx to all those who tagged =). it means alot =D

I've Got A Fever, I'm Hot. I Can't Be Stopped

Tat's part of a cheer in jj. n guess wad? i Do have a fever -.-...i shan't blog so much cos i'm rly tired =/ maybe tmr. cya all