Are You Ignoring Mi? o.O

Todae

Woke up n stared playing com. -.- Damn dota it is eating up my life. I nid to get distracted from it. Waiit...I keep playing dota cos it distracts me from thinking bout her -.- damn...wat now...Anw i pretty much played dota the whole of todae

Thoughts

Haixx when ever something happens i always assume the worst...I'm such a pessimist...Still...I feel bad 4 putting her in such a situation...Damn mi...Now tat i reread something i feel damn sad, I assumed something bout wat she felt, i was wrong...I feel so pathetic...i feel lyk a complete loser...although i am a loser...Probably goin to be in a bad mood tmr so the post may be extremely negative...I hate myself...No one will ever love mi...My ex moved her blog...I feel tis minor sense of loss or sadness...The last thing tat i have left of her is gone...Am i tat detestable?...I guess if i didn't exist thr really won't be a difference...I dun have any close friends anymore...Thr isn't any1 i can talk to about tis...Thr isn't any1 who cares...Thr will nvr be any1 who loves me...I wish i didn't exist.

I'm Sorry 4 Putting You In Such A Position...

Todae (part 2)

Went to Bpp 4 luch wif tim. Headed home then went to plae tennis wif him n some others tennis at debbies house end up onli me n tim playing -.- the rest swimming. Anw went home after tat n played Bnet zzz tim bought mi a battle chest as a present...now i'm gonna have no life -.-

Thoughts

=/ i feel slightly btr..cos 1stly i had fun when playing tennis n all..but still feel a bit sad. Haix i was trying not to think bout her..trying to get my self distracted wif other stuff...then when i was in the taxi wif tim i saw a couple hugging...it just reminded me so much of when i was wif my ex...The happiness i felt..tat feeling when i'm holding a gurl...then next comes the suck part...the thought tat i won't be having any of those anytime soon -.- damned spolier..haix she has her reasons...good reasons too...i guess i can't blame her...i doubt it'll make a good bf...if Ur reading tis it's not tat eu implied tat, jus one of my emo thots. Oh yar oso don feel guilty bout makin me lyk tis. Not ur fault kay..Okay now back to emoing -.- ... =/ i've run out of emo thots zzz ah well nvm good night to all

Once Again I've Done Something Stupid

Todae

Woke up...Emoed

Thoughts

...I can't halp but feel i did something wrong...Zzz i suck at handling this kinds of situations...I feel lyk goin to a corner n emoing. No one will ever lyk mi...Maybe i shouldn't have done anything...My original plan also has been totaly screwed up...Doesn't matter...I'm used to it...I've nvr made difference in anyone's lyf. If i didn't exist thr won't be a difference. So jus scram get anyway from mi. Leave me to live out my pathetic life on my own.

I'm Afraid...Afraid Tat U'll Nvr Want Mi

Todae

Had ss todae. tis is pretty much the last paper i nid to study 4 woohoo. Anw after sch went to mac wif a few ppl. had fun.

Thoughts

Haix...I've got a feeling i don make a good impression on her... Everytime i'm close to her n plan to strike a up a conversation i just get too nervous to do it...I mean i can talk easily to other gurls..N when i talk to her i onli can manage to say a few word. Eg. How was the paper? Thats all i can say...I don even smile...i mean how would tat look?...Wait did i smile? Arg... Anw got distracted twice during e exam which kinda resulted in mi not being able to complete a qn =x. ah well i didn't noe how to do it anw -.- . First time was cos it started raining. Then i thought tat it'll be nice to sit in the middle of the rain n emo -.- lolz lately i've been influenced by e pic on e right. Second time cos i saw her n started daydreaming -.- wthh...she's lyk diagonally in my line of sight zzz. Haix i kinda miss e exam now...At least i could catch a glimpse of her...Now i can't...I feel depressed jus thinking bout it...It sounds corny but the sight of her seriously brightens up my dull day -.-...Anw I'm sure she noes. Maybe she avoiding the subject cos she doesn't lyk mi...i'm so pessimistic. Maybe she doesn't noe i guess....Who cares...She won't lyk mi either way...

Will You Be The One Who Brings Mi The Umbrella While I'm Sitting In The Rain?

Todae

Studied in morning. Slacked in e afternoon. Went 4 dinner wif family

Thoughts

Haix..I'm really not sure wat will happen. Zzz i'm sure it'll end lyk it always does. Rejection. Ah well nvr hurt to try =). Waaiit...it will hurt -.- nvm. Well now i've got another reason to look forward to the end of O-lvls now...haix she is so distracting...can't stop thinking bout her...damn tis lovesick feeling...i keep getting thoughts of sitting in the pouring rain n emoing T.T y did i have to put ti blogskin lolz..maybe she'll be thr to bring mi an umbrella...lyk i once did...it seems so...cliche...

I Really Really Miss You...

Todae

Went 4 ss remedial. Went 4 youth =D

Thoughts

Damn wat is wrong wif mi...I can't believe i miss her oso much -.- zzz. I miss the voice, her presence, her irritating demeanour -.- i don noe y i miss tat. Ah well maybe it's b'cos after being so irritating to the ppl around mi, it's nice to have some one irritate mi -.- wad de... okay thr's something wrong wif mi...Wadeva...I still miss her...Y did she have to be so cute...N pretty...

I Need Someone To Hold T.T

Todae

Gave up trying to edit e previous blogskin -.- anw didn't do much todae. Slacked alot.

Thoughts

Felt really lonely in the morning. I miss her. -.- As usual. I wish i could just call n talk to her but i don reallt have excuse. N i can't sae "i just wanted to talk to eu" cos my mind was abit blank todae n i wouldn't have anything to talk bout...-.- Then again it's highly likely she'll do all the talking. But i doubt she'll want to talk to mi anwway. I was looking back at my old posts, i feel really stupid. The way i write seems lyk a sec 1. Ah well can't do anything bout it. Anw most of the time i blog is when i'm emo, I find tat it's cos i got no one to turn to. No one i can just bother in the middle of the night to talk to cos i'm feeling lonely. It kinda sux but i'm used to it. I miss the time when i was with my x. It was fun. But...i wasn't meant to be...It hurt so much 4 mi to end it but i jus had to. Nonetheless i miss the times when i had someone i could care for tat much...Is it so wrong to want to be in a relationship? okay i don noe y i just asked myself tat. No one really condemned mi about it. Nvm it fits the "emo" mood -.- Zzz i really lyk her. But she'll nvr lyk mi. No one did (almost). Tis just another one of times. Ah well i'm used to rejection. Used to the pain. It sux. N it'll hurt. But i'm used to it.

Time Will Tell

Todae

Had Phy paper. Was okay. Had dinner wif silvia n gang. I don noe y i went wif them -.-

Thots

Okayy. Tis all the pink is startin to irritate mi. Unless someone saes he/she lyks e skin i'm changing it soon. Zzz. Anw it's kinda awkward when she noes n i noe she noes. It's even more awkward when everyone else noes -.- lyf sux. haiixx. Wad should i do bout it nooww T.T someone help mii. Plss. I wish i was a gurl maybe things would be easier. Wait, now tat just sounds gay -.- wth is wrong wif mi.

Changed Blogskin(duh)

Todae

Studied at mac.

Thoughs

Damn..now i have post in pink cos i don lyk the colour contrast -.- ah well pink's a nice colour. Won't say so much cos i gtg. I hate weekends..Mainly cos it's boring n i can't c her -.- ... cya all

Love Story

Todae

I woke up at bout 9.30 but i jus couldn't make myself move off the bed -.- studied abit then slacked. I went to my grandmother's house 4 dinner. Her food is the best.

Thoughts

Was listening to Taylor Swift's Love Story. Makes me think bout a lot of things n wish for even more. The media player was on shuffle n the next song was Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings. It's lyk hearing bout a relationship from the gurl then the guy. Go listen n u'll noe. I feel btr then yesterdae. Still kinda emo. But better nonetheless. Was reading jokes on the net yesterdae. Kinda cheered mi up. I wish someone would call or msg mi. Maybe ask how i am. May post again later.

Lethargic And Lonely.

Todae

Went 4 Phy. Met timmy on B-net.

Thoughts

I'm gonna start another private blog jus 4 the fun of it. Asked to be invited. Anw, i feel damn lonely... I wish i had someone...Okay i'm gonna stop crapping bout my oh so pathetic lyf n maybe talk bout more intresting stuff.....okay..i can't think of anything intresting...nvm..i wish i had someone who i could talk to bout everything as in i can tell the person my completem, honest opinion. Lyk a vry good fren or a gf zzz i doubt i'll get either anytime soon. There was one who fit the earlier postition, but he didn't consider mi that much of a fren. Maybe he did, maybe it was my fault tat were not frens anymore. Doesn't matter. There's another one, who i could talk to about alot of things, tat person cared bout mi followed mi when i was upset n tried to help. Back then i just brushed tat person away. Then things happened n we stopped talking after awhile. Tat person has btr friends then mi i guess. For the second part i had one. Maybe i shouldn't have had her. The relationship was doomed for failure but i was to naive to see it. I just rushed in. It was fun. I was really happy for tat point of time. It was joy beyond wat i had ever felt before. But i could not continue. We parted ways. I felt more pain then i had ever felt before. Not only did tat relationship cause me pain at the end but it caused me hunger for tat joy even more then i did before. That ecstatic feeling was lyk a drug. Once i had a taste i wanted more n more...Okay i may be goin into an emo mood 4 the nxt few daes so my following posts may be extremely negative n sometimes untrue. I feel lyk i jus wrote a litrature piece -.- wth.

Eu Spelled My Name Wrong

Todae

Had Amaths. Was good.

Thoughts

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Life's Short

Todae

Hitched a ride from Tim. Had my Eng papers. Was kinda okay. After tat had an announcement. Then went subway wif my mom.

Thoughts

Maybe there r somethings tat i have been immature about. Things tat not should have needed an incident for me to realise. I should take a look at my life. Think bout where it's goin. Nt jus academically, but also socially. I should talk to him. N her too. No sil not the *****. The other gurl of whom i will not write the name out.

Mood Swing Over. Chem Paper Owned =D

Todae

Went sch at bout 11 to cram. No use 1 -.- all the diff stuff tat i crap nvr come out. Everything tat came out all damn easy. Good 4 mi anw. After tat went wif sil n jean to west mall then met louis zhong han n terrance. Went off wif them to sub even tho onli i eat -.- lol had fun. Qn. Wat is a noble gas. Louis' ans: a king farting -.- wth. altho it is kinda funny 4 those who noe the actual meaning which is an element in the 8th period of the periodic table.

Thoughts

Feelin btr than my last post. Had a bad mood swing, felt super negative about everything. Who cares if i'm being made use of. After all everyone makes use of everyone else. Eu hang out wif friends cos their fun to be wif. Etc etc. Random: Saw her at sch todae. She looked cute -.- wth is wrong wif mi. STUDY!!! Zzz distractions.

I Hate All Of You.



Todae



Went wif silvia to study at mac she was LATE!! lolz anw met jean shen n fiona thr. After tat i went 4 phy most of e2 not thr -.- zzz i go thr onli 4 the cro part. After tat went to west mall. Spaced out on the way thr. was thinking bout stuff. After tat wanted to talk bout it to a friend of mine. But she wasn't free. Zzz i sms oso can sms wrong -.- damned fone. Now she most probably mad at mi...

Thoughts

I'm sick n tired of eu. Now tat i think bout it ur just as bad as him. Don't eu want something from mi too? Eu claimed tat he was just making use of mi. Don't eu want to too? At least it was fun when i was wif him. Don't tell mi ur helping mi out of ur goodwill. I noe u'll want something back from mi. Now that i think about it. How many ppl actually befriended mi cos they liked mi? Most just have ulterior motive. Want mi to go do tis or help wif tat. Now to another person. I tot u were my friend. That eu sincerely cared about mi. I guess not. Not after eu brushed mi off so coldly. U'll onli bother about mi when it benefits u rite? Isn't tat y eu came in the first place? I hate you all.

I Miss You

Todaae

Went sch. Had ICE-CREAM at swensens =D Went 4 night study.

Thoughs

Cos my blog's not private i can't afford the luxury of putting ur name. Anw eu should noe who eu are.

To the person who blogged bout mi:

I noe i can't stop eu from unleashing ur wrath upon tat person. But honestly is tat who eu should be targeting? Fine she has a sucky attitute. But will u actually care if she wasn't wif him? He's the one who caused all the trouble n eu simply sae "he isn't tat great" c'mon get real. Eu even said tat he's done alot of crappy things to mi n yet eu pin all the blame on her. He's the ****ing a*****e. Ur jus pissed cos she was wif him. She wasn't even the one who went 4 him. It was the other way round kay? I'm sorry if it sounds harsh but seriously this is wat it is. Ur refusing to blame him cos eu haven't got over him.

It Will Nvr Happen

Todaae n Yesterdae

Didn't post yesterdae cos was too lazy. Yesterdae i went sch at bout 1 then realised tat phy was postponed to fri -.- I must have been sleeping when Aw said tat. Anw then i went to study at mac wif Jean n Rach. Zzz I tot tat the mac tat they were studying at wasn't the one close to west mall n i blur blur walked ALL the way thr in the rain -.- . Then i wait 4 lyk 20 min msg them oso no reply. Felt lyk an idiot. Then walk all the way back n saw them at west mall mac -.- ****. Anw studied wif them then Hui Shan came. After tat i went 4 night study.

Todae i went to sch at bout 11 i think. Brought my laptop. Gt stolen by the gurls i was sitting wif zzz go take my laptop anyhow plae music. Anw then gt back report card. Damn pathetic results. Was the same as sec 3 -.- . Went 4 tuition after eng remedial.

Thoughts

Everything is happening again. -.- I can just c the ending. Rejection. Again. Y do i keep trying? Okay rhetorical Qn. I noe y. So tat i can find someone who loves mi. Tats all i want. Y is it so hard? -.- lyf suxx.

Who Can Blame Her. After All Who Can Possibly Lyk Mi.

Todae

Studied at mac. Went sch for phy. Went subway wif htet brendan haojie n debbie.

Thoughts

Time for another emo post..Haixxxx she'll nvr lyk mi. Wad was i thinking??
Ah well. Sighh. She is really cute. -.- wth...

You All Were Right Bout him

Todae (part 2)

Went for tuiton. Came home. Went for bible study wif family.

Thoughts

I guess i was wrong. I didn't think tat he was tat much of jerk. Well i did think he was a jerk but i didn't think he was tat much of one. Ah well i guess i'll just have to find some other friends to spend my hols wif... I doubt anybody will ask me to go out wif them...Saad...Once again she creeps into my head. I wish i could spend part of my hols wif her even as jus a friend. But i doubt it'll happen...I'm pretty sure she busy wif stuff n other friends. Even if she is free i don think i'm anywhere close to the top of her "friends to go out wif" list...i guess i'll just hide in my lil hole n emo, oblivious to the world.

Loneliness Sets In

Today

Went to father's office. nthing else -.-

Thoughts

I could rite a love letter wif wad i'm doing now -.- : I'm sitting here on a boring saturday afternoon thinking bout eu...etc. -.- wth. Anw i serious am. I can't really think bout anything else. I can't even study zzz. Of all damn times. Y??? T.T nothing good will ever come out of this desire. I'll get nothing but disappointment after awhile. Haiix. I kinda wish i still had sch. At least i may be able to catch a minor glimpse of her or have a short chat. I hate tis. Y do i always feel lyk tat?

It'll Take Time

Todaaee

I don noe go sch for wad todae. Onli had lyk an hour of classes -.- . anw went for eng intensive. I found out i got completely owned by a gurl in L1R5 T.T time to work damn hard. Must own her muhahaha. -.- Anw then i had a chat wif jean earlier lolz she won shut up. I guess tat's good cos i didn't have much to sae so jus listen.

Thoughts

YAY my feeling were finally correct =D...wait...tat's not a good thing... -.- wth ah well i was expecting it. I shouldn't expect more then tis outcome. Always has been, always will be.

Which Path Should I Take?

Todaaee

Had sch. Then i went for phy intensive cos i need tat A1 thr. Had dinner wif Silvia Larrisa (is tat spelt correct?) Jeanell n Fiona at mos. Had fun was jokin bout loads of stuff. Lyk Fiona n shrek lolz. Anw i went fon night study after tat then caught a ride home wif tim.

Thots

Haix. She doesn't noe. I guess maybe she's oretending not to noe cos she won't lyk mi. Okay i gt a feelin tat postin bout tis will make it damn obvious but heck wif the consequences. Haix. I don't noe. I jus got tis feeling. Then again my "feelings" r usually wrong -.- . anw i went to someone's blog. sil will noe immediately who. I was really irritated bout his attitude haix i can't really blame him cos he doesn't really noe completely y i'm pissed wif him. But still he couldn't even b bothered to ask. Bloody attitude.

How I Wish Tat Eu Felt The Same Way

Todae

i shan't blog much cos it's late n i nid sleep. Sch was as usual. Gt caught in the rain on e way after intensive. Went 4 tuiton, had headache.

Tots

I don't noe if eu noe how i feel. If eu do i don't think eu feel the same way. haix tat the way of my lyf. I won't ever be happy in terms of my love lyf. Okay it's reall presumptious to say tat. But tat's how i feel. Hopeless. Unloved. Tat y i lyk the song I'm With You by Avril Lavgine. It's about some who lost n waiting for someone to find him/her. Tat's how i interpret it. It's sort of metaphorical to my love lyf.

Still Doubtful

Todaee

Was almost late again but heng managed to catch e bus. Wah i todae damn stupid. Go wear PE to sch -.- heng i quickly go change if not every1 will laff at mi. Anw sch was as usual.

After sch i went by Jean's house to pass her hw to her. Was supposed to dumo it in her letter box but the slot wasn't open -.- dots. Anw went up passed it to her n wait 4 lift. I went to look at e view thr for a min. I was lyk wondering wat took the lift so long. Actually there liao but got no sound -.- . Zzz i envy her. The view at 12 floor so nice. i onli got trees to look at on e 2nd floo T.T

Went to sch for abit of Amaths after tat. Then i went for night studys after tat

Thoughts

I'm really confused. I think I'm reading to much into things -.- over reading certain actions. I feel lyk an idiot now. Then again wat if i'm not? Zzz wat r e chance of tat. It's most probably the former option. Haix. I nid a sign!! .... I can jus picture myself in the rain shouting tat lolz. So dramatic. I really hope tat it will happen. I bet all eu poor readers will be wondering wad the crap i'm talking bout n who/wat i'm refering to. Ha. Have fun figuring it out -.- I am so lame. cya all thx 4 e tags =D

Looking 4 Random Ppl To Study Wif

Todaee

Was almost late cos i woke up at 6.35 -.- heng still on time. anw sch was usual. Had a chem test. had to go alll the way up to e4 zzz. Then camped wif sil n shen 4 awhile to help them out then went west mall cos shenlyn nid buy calculator. after tat came home. -.- my lyf is so borin

Thots

I'm gonna trust eu on tis one. Thx 4 helping me. I really appreciate it. N if it really work then i sae eu pro =P.

It Was A Stupid Idea

Todae

Quick post cos dad rushing me. Went to study at bpp wif Silvia. Ended up bitching n crapping bout alot of stuff -.- had three ice-creams =D. -.- kay. i'll put more details tmr

Thots
Nothing much to sae now. I'm jus really uncertian bout something. =/

Silent Obsession

Todae

Didn't do much todae. Read one of my sis' romance novels. I completed it cos i can nvr leave a book uncompleted no matter how bad it is. I hated it. The ending was happy n so unrealistic. Things like tat will nvr happen to mi. -.- Anw i took an afternoon nap n when i woke up it wasn't afternoon anymore zzz.

Thoughts

I'm still at a loss of wad to do. It kinda sux when thrs no one eu can turn to for advise or at least to confide in? I hate tis love sick feeling this feeling immense loneliness. Looking back i've survived everytime this happened although the feeling sucked. I never seem to learn. I just keep trying n trying n keep getting rejected. Is it worth it? Then again is wrong to want something btr. But it's just a want i'll nvr get. So i guess it's wrong to torture myself lyk tat.But wat if i really do get it? Maybe it's worth torturing myself if there's even a tiny chance. I tell myself tis everytime. Haixx. Y must i be lyk tis? Y must i have such a strong longing for a relationship? ****. Maybe I'll just wait tis one out. I doubt I'll be capable of tat. I'll jus blurt it out n screw something up. Even so i'm afraid of being a lousy boyfriend. I've heard bout guys being unfaithful, possesive. I'm afraid of becoming one...

When Opportunity Presents Itself, Will Eu Go For It?

Todae

Didn't do much. sch was borin but i went to watch house bunny. it was hilarious anw then had tuition then came home zzz

Thots
Ever been in a situation where ur not sure whether or not to do something cos ur afraid? Afraid of rejection, tat ur wrong, tat it really wasn't n opportunity? i'm stuck in one now. between a rock n a hard place -.- fear for loss of a friend fear for the loss of something btr T.T damn my lyf.

Todaae
todae was an unusual but fun dae. in e morning i went 4 tution. then met up wif beng loon to study. but he had to meet yu xiang so he asked mi along. b4 tat went to mac 4 awhile bu saw some jerk thr. anw yu xiang came n we went n met up wif nick wong thr. then we walked to rail mall to hang out, thr we went to coffee bean. zzz feel so pai seh. we caused a few gurls to be chased out cos they studying thr. anw had one coffee which cost alot. lyk 6 bucks. anw then beng loon suggested we go to the forest behind. so we did. had a nice trek. when goin along one road we saw a short stairs goin over a little ridge. we heard some dog barking so we went to check it out. yu xiang went up saw a dog then slowly backed down. the we started to move away quickly. n guess wat? the bloody dog chased us. -.- okay the dog was harmless n we could have scared it away or beat the crap out of it. but we didn't really expect it so we paniced n ran. the bloody dog chased up all the way up some damn hill. anw then yu xiang ran off to one side i followed but the dog ran cut thru some trees n went towards e way xiang was goin. so i turned back. anw the dog kinda gave up n we got the hell out of thr. n here i was thinking todae would be a dull day -.- . lolz we were considering goin to get some revenge but decided not too. maybe another dae. lolz

Laughter is the best medicine
On Christmas morning a cop on horseback is sitting at a traffic light, and next to him is a kid on his shiny new bike.

The cop says to the kid, "Nice bike you got there. Did Santa bring that to you?"

The kid replies, "Yeah."

The cop says, "Well, next year tell Santa to put a tail-light on that bike."

The cop then proceeds to issue the kid a $20.00 bicycle safety violation ticket.

The kid takes the ticket and before he rides off says, "By the way, that's a nice horse you got there. Did Santa bring that to you?"

Humoring the kid, the cop says, "Yeah, he sure did."

The kid continued, "Well, next year tell Santa to put the dick underneath the horse, instead of on top.

Eu Have To Feel The Pain!! Quote by Miss Angela Toh -.- saddist

Haven't posted in awhile. won't post much to after Os. short summary bout e past few days. Many things happened. A separation which i have long wished to happen for the good of one party. A attempt to find the truth, or sabotage someone as i prefer to think. It's not her fault. Not mainly anyway. It's his. Get it straight. Don't be blinded by lies n appearances. Some people r complete jerks. Also, I've contemplated attempting for a relationship =/ I don't really see the hope in it this time. i guess it'll be a silent obsession. Also the reason I'm using bombastic english n perfect grammar is due to the fact that i need to improve my english. Cya. May randomly post here and there.

Todaaee

Short post todae cos can't use com 4 long. Gt back me results. b4 for eng. a2 for Emaths. damn pathetic zzz. had night study. i couldn't really study cos i kept feeling distracted..

Thotts

Just read through someone's blogg amazing how some people can critise themself n put themselves in a btr light. I guess it makes them look humble n honest. But they don't really put the whole story there.

Well i'll put a lil bout myself: I trust no one. I'm irritating. i lie through my teeth easily so nvr trust wat i say no matter how sincre i can seem sometimes. There r onli so many times i will forgive someone. I feel lyk i'm the only one who's in this kind of a situation. I don't trust anyone because my faith was misplaced once. I thought he was my friend. But i'm just a tool to him. Cast aside once of no use. I'll get even one day. I nid someone i can trust. Someone i can dump all my thoughts to. N more importantly tat person must trust me as much as i do. I will do anything for someone whom i deem as a real friend. Unfortuanately no one's up for tat position. I should have tried to find a genuine friend rather then waste my time wif him. ****er.

My table at mac

Todaae

rained lyk crap. parents fetched. how nice.gt back results b4 for phy T.T . Gt C for Amath **** it. After tat went to mac to study wif Jean. Met Rachel n Hui Shan thr. One of the few times i she Hui Shan smile. most of the time i c her in class she gt tis emo/tired look -.- . maybe she gt probs maybe she jus wanna act emo =_=. I find most gurls look alot prettier when they smile. Wadeva don noe why the two of em keep laughing at mi when u teaching a Qn -.- wth. tuition was cancelled. so bused home.

Thots

I'll devote a part to the onli person that tagged mi recently, jean. vry nice friend to have. It's really nice to noe eu have a fellow christian in this somewat condemned enviroment. Anw Jean don't b bother bout wat others do or think maybe ur baised to mi mayb eu jus disagree wif wat she does. but honestly who are we to judge? Let her be. It is mentioned in the bible tat we should be different from the world (or smthing lyk tat) so y bother wat they do? Whether their cowardly or they do things to irritate you just don't bother. Jesus didn't complain when the own people he came down to die for condemned him.

Now to myself i've been feeling someone down recently. Abut dissapointed a bit angry a bit left out. I feel helpless. I really lyk helping people. Now i feel completely useless. Haix. I am really depressed.

Laugh ur guts out

A Minneapolis couple decided to go to Florida to thaw out during a particularly icy winter. They planned to stay at the same hotel where they spent their honeymoon 20 years earlier. Because of hectic schedules, it was difficult to coordinate their travel plans.

So, the husband left Minneapolis and flew to Florida on Thursday, with his wife flying down the following day. The husband checked into the hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an email to his wife. However, he accidentally left out one letter in her email address, and without realizing his error, sent the email.

Meanwhile, somewhere in Houston, a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral. He was a minister who was called home to glory following a heart attack. The widow decided to check her email expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message, she screamed and fainted.

The widow's son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:

To: My loving wifeSubject: I've arrived Date: April 6, 2006I know you're surprised to hear from me. They have computers here now and you are allowed to send emails to your loved ones. I've just arrived and have been checked in. I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow. Looking forward to seeing you then. Hope your journey is as uneventful as mine was.P.S. sure is freaking hot down here!!!!!

E2!!!!

Todaaee

Todae gt back some results fail geog by 0.5, 30 for ss. b4 for physics. I NEED TO BUCK UP!!!! okay anw after tat had night study. i'll die wif out those sessions. as usual camped by myself at one spot. louis terrance n zhong han joined mi 4 awhile. i oso saw tat gurl from e3 i still don noe her name. i think she's kinda hot -.- . nvm. Jus heard the muttons edit disturbia , lyk LOLZ. oso there's one of the dj disturbing some caucasian -.- lolz

Thots

someone told mi she was prayin 4 my "love lyf". i told her not to bother cos it was so screwed up.lolz. anw it gt mi thinking n oso wishing. i was think bout my past experiences. all of them SUCKED. Mayb a bit of happy times once in awhile. i was wondering why i bothered. It's one word, hope. Hope tat i can find someone tat i can be there 4 etc etc (refer to wishes). i guess it's human nature to want these things so much. or mayb it's just how God created mi to be lyk. well there is tat minor adrenaline rush when i'm about to do something stupid etc give roses to a gurl -.- wth. the wish part is quite obvious -.- .

Haha

Label Instructions:
In case you needed further proof that the Human Race is doomed through stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on consumer products:

1. On a blanket from Taiwan - NOT TO BE USED AS PROTECTION FROM A TORNADO.

2. On a helmet mounted mirror used by US cyclists - REMEMBER, OBJECTS IN THE MIRROR ARE ACTUALLY BEHIND YOU.

3. On a Taiwanese shampoo - USE REPEATEDLY FOR SEVERE DAMAGE.

4. On the bottle-top of a (UK) flavoured milk drink - AFTER OPENING, KEEP UPRIGHT.

5. On a New Zealand insect spray - THIS PRODUCT NOT TESTED ON ANIMALS.

6. In a US guide to setting up a new computer - TO AVOID CONDENSATION FORMING, ALLOW THE BOXES TO WARM UP TO ROOM TEMPERATURE BEFORE OPENING. (Sensible, but the instruction was INSIDE the box.)

7. On a Japanese product used to relieve painful hemorrhoids - LIE DOWN ON BED AND INSERT POSCOOL SLOWLY UP TO THE PROJECTED PORTION LIKE A SWORD-GUARD INTO ANAL DUCT. WHILE INSERTING POSCOOL FOR APPROXIMATELY 5 MINUTES, KEEP QUIET.

8. In some countries, on the bottom of Coke bottles - OPEN OTHER END.

9. On a packet of Sunmaid raisins - WHY NOT TRY TOSSING OVER YOUR FAVOURITE BREAKFAST CEREAL?

10. On a Sears hairdryer - DO NOT USE WHILE SLEEPING.

11. On a bag of Fritos - YOU COULD BE A WINNER! NO PURCHASE NECESSARY. DETAILS INSIDE. (The shoplifter special!)

12. On a bar of Dial soap - DIRECTIONS - USE LIKE REGULAR SOAP. (And that would be how?)

13. On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom of the box) - DO NOT TURN UPSIDE DOWN. (Too late! You lose!)

14. On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding - PRODUCT WILL BE HOT AFTER HEATING. (Are you sure? Let's experiment.)

15. On a Korean kitchen knife - WARNING: KEEP OUT OF CHILDREN. (Dammit! Who are they to tell me what to do with my kids?)

16. On a string of Chinese-made Christmas lights - FOR INDOOR OR OUTDOOR USE ONLY. (As opposed to use in outer space?)

17. On a Japanese food processor - NOT TO BE USED FOR THE OTHER USE. (Now I'm curious.)

18. On Sainsbury's peanuts - WARNING - CONTAINS NUTS. (Really? Peanuts contain nuts?)

19. On an American Airlines packet of nuts INSTRUCTIONS - OPEN PACKET, EAT NUTS. (I'm glad they cleared that up.)

20. On a Swedish chainsaw - DO NOT ATTEMPT TO STOP CHAIN WITH YOUR HANDS OR GENITALS. (What kind of consumer phone-call led to this warning?)

21. On a child's superman costume - WEARING OF THIS GARMENT DOES NOT ENABLE YOU TO FLY. (That's right, destroy a universal childhood fantasy!)

22. On some frozen dinners: SERVING SUGGESTION: DEFROST.

23. On a hotel provided shower cap in a box: FITS ONE HEAD.

24. On packaging for a Rowenta iron: DO NOT IRON CLOTHES ON BODY.

25. On Boot's "Children's" cough medicine: DO NOT DRIVE CAR OR OPERATE MACHINERY.

26. On Nightly sleep aid: WARNING: MAY CAUSE DROWSINESS. (Duh!)

Todaaee
no pic todae cos i haven't found any nice places to take a sunset T.T. well todae had sch. went thr onli gt 7 ppl in our class -.- had exam did for 20 min slept 40 min. was thinking bout my death. didn't seem so bad. i've always tot lyf was a joke n death's the punch line. anw after tat met louis 4 breakfast then went his houe n owned a poor "shen gao ren" on MHF2. after tat went home showered went to zhen hua 4 Clb oral exam. then when got on e bus, i realised i 4gt my entry proof after 3 stop -.- ****. ran all theway home to get it n ran to zhen hua cos the bus would take too long. by the time reach there my shirt was soaked wif sweat -.- . my oral was screwed up 25% of my conv had english. wth. then went to bpp wif tim n cheiw ming n murdered an akantor. after tat went tution. yups. tat bout it todae.
Quiz
aung htet wanted mi to do it so here it is -.-

1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4-"the cops. they'll never expect drifting on a night like tonight."

2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?-an unused sofa cover -.-

3) Before you started this survey, what were you doing?- blog hopping

4) What is the last thing you watched on TV?- pirtates of e carribian =P

5) Without looking, guess what time it is it?- 11.10?

6) Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?- 11.o4 =)

7) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?- my radio,98.7

8) When did you last step outside? What were you doing?- earlier todae to go 4 exam -.-

9) Did you dream last night?- ...erm.. don remember

10) Do you remember your dreams?- occasionally

11) When did you last laugh?- 2 min ago

12) Do you remember why / at what?- cos of e dj one radio. retarded guys lolz

13) What is on the walls of the room you are in?- toys loads of em'

14) Seen anything weird lately?- hmm oh yar tis drunk guy outide mac shouting obscene stuff LOLZ

15) What do you think of this quiz?- ranodm n stupid

16) What is the last film you saw?- bangkok dangerous. it sux

17) If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?- the carribean. or anw wif crystal clear beach waters =)

18) If you became a multi-billionaire overnight, what would you buy?- clothes i'll go on a freaking shopping spree woohoo -.-

19) Tell me something about you that most people don't know.- i was named after a town in belgium. the place my parents first met. -.- google my name n u'll c lolz

20) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or
politics, what would you do?- i would make christianity allowed n for it to be preached anywhere. praise the Lord =D

21) Do you like to dance?-kind of

22) Would you ever consider living abroad?- yes, to study in a U.

23) Does your name make any interesting anagrams?- not sure nvr tot about it

24) Who made the last incoming call on your phone?-timothy -.-

25) What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?- check yes juliet by we the kings =)

26) Last time you swam in a pool?-... last year?

27) Type of music you like most?- hmm kinda random

28) Type of music you dislike most?- ...don have much

29) Are you listening to music right now?- yes

30) What color is your bedroom carpet?- don have 1 my floor's wooden

31) If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?- nothing my house owns

32) What was the last thing you bought?- seasons apple tea on the way home from tution

33) Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?- yes, when i was 5 -.-

HaHa

A Captain in the foreign legion was transferred to a desert outpost. On his orientation tour he noticed a very old, seedy looking camel tied out back of the enlisted mens barracks. He asked the Sergeant leading the tour, "What's the camel for?".

The Sergeant replied "Well sir it's a long way from anywhere, and the men have natural sexual urges, so when they do, uh, we have the camel."
The captain said "Well if it's good for moral, then I guess it's all right with me."

After he had been at the fort for about 6 months the captain could not stand it any more so he told his Sergeant, "BRING IN THE CAMEL!!!" The sarge shrugged his shoulders and led the camel into the captains quarters.

The captain got a foot stool & proceeded to have vigorous sex with the camel. As he stepped, satisfied,down from the stool, and was buttoning his pants he asked the Sergeant, "Is that how the enlisted men do it?"

The Sergeant replied, "Well sir, they usually just use it to ride into town."

Quote by bush(it's real)
"Our enemies are innovative and resourceful, and so are we. They never stop thinking about new ways to harm our country and our people, and neither do we." - Washington, D.C., Aug. 5, 2004

todaae n yesterdaae
i don noe y i bother bloggin no 1 reads anw -.- haixx. i feel damn bored now. maybe should go flame some blog. hmm sounds fun -.-. anw yesterdae nothing much happened went out wif my family to some park then had dinner a some over restaurant wif over priced food. then todae had some major clean up of my house.

my thots
I just realised how many real friends o have. how many i can actually count on. how many i completely trust. none. i kinda lyk it like tat. no one who can betray me. no one who can hurt me. well people can betray me but it won't b as bad as some one eu trust. same 4 being hurt. wat benefit do true friends have tat can outweight tis? someone who eu can count? i trust myself the most. no one can help mi tat unselfishly. someone who can keep my secrets? wat's the point. i rather keep them all to myself. someone who i can talk to when i'm lonely? i'd rather talk to a wall or blog. y do we need real friends anw? maybe a few here n there so i don completely lose touch wif the world other then tat y bother? anw jus read through's abi's blog LOL damn entertaining. nid to thank her brightened up my dull night =P. Ty abi. haix those poor naive n dumb people . ah well. blessed is the fool. =/

HaHa
A little girl and her mother were out and about.

Out of the blue, the girl asked her mother, "Mommy, How old are you?"

The mother responded, "Honey, women don't talk about their age. You'll learn this as you get older."

The girl then asked, "Mommy, how much do you weigh?" Her mother responded again, "That's another thing women don't talk about. You'll learn this, too, as you grow up."

The girl, still wanting to know about her mother, then fired off another question, "Mommy, why did you and Daddy get a divorce?"

The mother, a little annoyed by the questions, responded, "Honey, that is a subject that hurts me very much, and I don't want to talk about it now."

The little girl, frustrated, sulked until she was dropped off at a friend's house to play. She consulted with her girlfriend about her and her mother's conversation.

The girlfriend said, "All you have to do is sneak a look at your mother's driver's license. It's just a like a report card from school. It tells you everything."

Later, the little girl and her mother were out and about again. The little girl started off with, "Mommy, Mommy, I know how old you are. I know how old you are. You're 32 years old."

The mother was very shocked. She asked, "Sweetheart, how do you know that?" The little girl shrugged and said, "I just know. And I know how much you weigh. You weigh 130 pounds."

"Where did you learn that?" The little girl said, "I just know.

And I know why you and Daddy got a divorce. You got an 'F' in sex."

Todaae

took tis pic on e way to my tuition teacher's house.for a second i tot i could c a star in the background when i looked back i disappeared =/. ah well. anw i was readin through some peoples blogs vry entertaining some blog they contradict themselves some blogs show someone who's had a bad dae which sometimes happen to b funny to an onlooker. some r..well..jus funny

Anw i had my Amaths paper todae. gt owned -.- went to plae dota wif tim got owned again -.- my lyf sux. haix sometimes i jus seem to lyk lookin 4 trouble =/. zzz. i feel lyk putin another emo post but i really can't think of anything. haiix i guess i'm a lil too sleepy to crap tat much -.- cya all thx 4 taggin it means a lot. whether negative or positive. well positive's btr, but i don really mind other kind. lyk...constructive criticism. yar. ZzZzZzZ

HaHa

Applying for a Job at the CIA


A few months ago, there was an opening with the CIA for an assassin. These highly classified positions are hard to fill, and there's a lot of testing and background checks involved before you can even be considered for the position. After sending some applicants through the background checks, training and testing, they narrowed the possible choices down to two men and a woman, but only one position was available.
The day came for the final test to see which peson would get the extremely secretive job. The CIA men administering the test took one of the men to a large metal door and handed him a gun. "We must know that you will follow our instructions whatever the circumstances," they explained. "Inside this room, you will find your wife sitting in a chair. Take this gun and kill her." The man looked horrified and said, "You can't be serious! I could never shoot my wife!" "Well," said the CIA man, "you're definitely not the right man for this job then."
So they brought the second man to the same door and handed him a gun. "We must know that you will follow instructions no matter what the circumstances," they explained to the second man. "Inside you will find your wife sitting in a chair. Take this gun and kill her." The second man looked a bit shocked, but nevertheless took the gun and went in the room. All was quiet for about 5 minutes; then the door opened. The man came out of the room with tears in his eyes. "I tried to shoot her; I just couldn't pull the trigger and shoot my wife. I guess I'm not the right man for the job."
"No," the CIA man replied, "You don't have what it takes. Take your wife and go home."
Now they only had the woman left to test. They led her to the same door to the same room and handed her the same gun. "We must be sure that you will follow instructions no matter what the circumstances; this is your final test. Inside you will find your husband sitting in a chair. Take this gun and kill him." The woman took the gun and opened the door. Before the door even closed all the way, the CIA men heard the gun start firing, one shot after another for 13 shots. Then all hell broke loose in the room. They heard screaming, rashing, and banging on the walls. This went on for several minutes; then all went quiet.
The door opened slowly, and there stood the woman. She wiped the sweat from her brow and said, "You guys didn't tell me the gun was loaded with blanks. I had to beat the son of a bitch to death with the chair!"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGvR0UemZIw

found tis pic on e com lolz zzz couldn't post yesterdae cos wasn't allowed to use com -.- anw will post bout yesterdae 1st


yesterdae

had two papers yesterdae,Amaths n Eng. was okay. after tat gt damn pissed. cos of some bloody jerk. 2 twice. 1st time: leaving sch js ignore mi *****r. after i left sch i went to hang out wif derrick zhong han terrence n a few others. then we went to wacth bangkok dangerous was an okay show endin kinda sux. after tat saw him again. then he jus sae hi then act blurr. as if he can't c i'm damned pissed. bloody jerk eu think i wad ur dog ah? onli when all ur other friends ps eu then come find mi? or eu expect mi to come find eu everytime as if ur so important? even so eu choose them over mi. *****r.went home gt pissed again cos of my parents cos they don wan mi use com nvm they mean well 4 mi nt lyk some people.



todaae



had Emaths heng managed to finish mi paper. went louis house to plae mh owned some stuff then on e way to somewhere i saw him felt damn pissed. after tat went 4 night class . there were more people then tues. after tat bused home if pyx yups tat it

the moon from our sch

todae was a loong dae -.- anw E-maths was good i let my compass to e gurl (don noe e name =X) sitting nxt to mi. i spent half the exam tryin to tell her i kicked under her table liao then when i finally gave up the she notice it -.- anw had chem after tat then i suddenly felt vry lonely after bout 1hour 15min -.- my entire class leave then onli gt 7 ppl left -.- anw then when to yew tee wif wy n eugene then they bought cards then we crapped 4 awhile then went to buy lunch from pasa malam (is it spelt correctly? o.O) anw then eugene went home n wy dragged mi to mac. bloody loser. either eu choose mi or her damned friends okay? i'm ****ing sick n tired of em. n to some other ****h wat the hell does it have to do wif eu if i put ice-cream on top of his huh? anw other thing at mac i saw tat gurl again n some one playin patapon on tat table couldn't help lookin n laffing to myself noob-.-. anw back to cursin. as if it a really big decision. tat he has to lyk sacrifice alot for mi. *****r. as if i've done nothing 4 him. anw wat has he done anw? oh yar stabbed mi in the back once damned SoB. the people i make friends wif. -.- . anw to less destructive thots. i went 4 night study. i cover quite a lot although nt so many ppl went todae:

sch at 6.45

sch at 7.45

sch at 8.45

after tat came home zzz

random cute pics lolz

lolz found tat pic on my com. damn cute. i feel lyk spamming my blog wif pon n zi but nah anw went to sch as usual but would have been late if not for the rain. thank You Lord =) anw had my Amaths n geo paper T.T screwed em' up there goes my A1 T.T. wen yew said something but i can't confirm it =/ sadd anw after tat went to mac to study wif jeanell n rachel lyk lolz quite fun at 1st then suddenly tot but something which a ring reminded mi of...suddenly felt emo n a longing 4 some1..nvm i'm so over tat...anw felt btr after awhile. i had three ice-cream zzz no more $$ T.T



two mcflurrys n a fudge sundae =P



ice-cream, btr then drugs lolz -.- anw i went to my cousin's house. i felt kinda unmotivated b4 than then cheered up =D nthing much happened after tat zzz

pls hate me, world

for a moment i tot i best to apologise but nah. i prefer things tis way. especially after reading some stuff i can finally tell myself some people jus aren't mature enuf 4 mi to care bout. some people just aren't worth it. lollz. anw todae was borin. i feel lyk flaming someone but i jus can't really be bothered wif such immature stuff. eu noe i really lyk it when some1 doubts mi. makes the results seem so much sweeter. anw i'm a lil worried bout my geog =/ nthing much else to sae zzz

another sunset at seletar

it is fun to be disliked by people. well it depends on the people. y? cos when i get my results 4 o-lvls back well c who's the idiots. i find tat it doesn't matter how much people lyk eu in sec sch. it jus 4 years. do people really look back on how well lyked eu are in the future? no, not really it's jus ur o-lvl cert. most of the peple who think i'm a loser will most probablybe the losers in the future. i hope eu guys have fun. anw todae woke up at 12.30pm. so early. yawn. anw went straight 4 tution then went to mac to study wif wen yi n her friend. i can't belive some1 so dumb can get into e5 lol jkjk. then after tat went to bpp to buy sch shoe cos my old 1 is in lyk pieces. n i oso bough a shirt. i lyk shoppin. i onli don have much $$. -.- wat kind of a guy am i? anw was talkin to wen yi bout some1. turns out i've onli had a 1 sided opinion on some1. anw i prefer the otherside of the arguement. which is tat person's a b****. anw some one called me childish. i don really c how. although now tat i think about it, it was childish to argue wif tat person. i can't blame dumb people for having such a narrow point of view. ah well. lyf's lyk tat.

sunset at ...where did i take tis?

Wow someone actually reads my blog tat jus lovely -.- wadeva. anw i sae wat i feel, i curse who i want, tat's mi. wadeva again. anw didn't blog yesterdae cos got home vry late cos of night study. i really lyk goin. really productive. lolz. anw todae sch was as usual. lolz stupid mr loh get suaned 1 time not enuf mus go do it again. lolz as if any1 cares bout wat he saes. after he was done had e oral presentation thing. i couldn't really hear 1 of the presenters. i guess she can't really pronounce words tat well. Who cares anw. anw gt back my Emaths pep exam paper 2. gt 84% so pathetic. zzz geo on mondae. i nid to buck up. oh yar was "arguing" wif mairah bout who was stupider. ah well who gives a damn stupid is stupid who giv a damn bout who stupid eu r. -.-. anw i'm still at a dilemma. **** her again. -.- haven't really much more to talk bout. i'll edit tis post if i remember something.

sunset at seletar

had selfstudy at sch last night. vry productive. todae went mac wif tim. loser still playin monster hunter. o-lvl here but still messin around he really wants to go for Direct Ite Entry -.-. anw todae miss Toh dragged out poor Hao Jie, Brendan n Zhen Xiang even tho their hair so short. -.- . anw had Amaths. daedreamed gt scolded by Mr Chia =/ wat's his prob i've been lyk tat the past two years yet i can score 4 Amaths still wan scold mi. Everything he go thru so easy. mayb i'll pay attension when he does something harder =/. anw slept in chem. nth else happen todae. my lyf borin aint it? haix every hated someone but lyked tat peron at the same time? something's wrong wif mi. **** her. all her damned fault. -.-

sunset in the city

almost overslept todae.. heng sis woke mi up -.-..ZzZzZ todae the evil n overbearing Miss Angela Toh dragged mi n a whole row of innocent guy out jus for the fun of watching pur precious hair get cut off. -.- tat woman is pure evil. thankfully Mr Syamsul cut my hair so not much diff. School was normal. Todae was one of the rare occasion where i do not sleep in class =/. Anw went to Kfc. Yups. She does hate mi. C mi can hear a rather audiable curse. Somemore confirm on blog. Wat's her bloody prob. I go Kfc oso wan scold mi. ****h. It's not lyk i follow her there rite? I was lyk there 1st. Don lk mi go somewhere else lahh. ****er.

"1st" dae of sch. well i can't really call it the first i had to go back everydae of the "holidaes" except fri (i actually was supposed to go but 4 gt =/).the whole class relocated to the 1st floor cos of Aung Htet. Ah well being on top was a bit of a distration and trouble for mi anw. distraction cos of e other classes. trouble cos it's the fourth floor damn troublesome to climb up -.-. anw chased the whole class put durin our chem lolz then had 'open air' learnin outside our class durin physics lolz. 1 more month till the big Os. tryin to concentrate on studies not her -.- **** it. lyf sux.

currently at upper seletar reserviour usin com -.-. my family came here to cycle. i come use laptop -.-. ah well. haix.i've given up on friends. they're all useless. can't be counted upon. hmm went to my grandmother b'dae yesterday. had fun. still couldn't get her out of my head. ****. wat's wrong wif mi. haix.every1 think's they noe best. so who's actually correct? to whom should i listen to? for now it's onli my own idea or God's. i don give a damn wat other people sae. lyf sux. mine anw. i don have any1 i really trust. maybe i'm to cautious. maybe i jus haven't found any1 i can trust watever it is i don have any1 to confide my feelings to. tat really sux. the view here's beautiful. makes mi think of her. ****. zzz there's whole bunch of irritating kids throwing stones in the water.anw nthing much to sae liao. cya

don feel so emo todae =/ nvm it's good...didn't really do much today.had a borin morining then plaed psp after lunch (home-made lagsania =P) patapon n dj max then afterwards goin to my uncle's house to celebrate my grandmother b'dae. haven't seen m cousins in awhile. can finally catch up wif them =D haix she still on my mind...for reasons i do not noe. i seriously wonder y i lyk her so much -.- nvm time will tell so for now...hmm..i don really noe wad to do now -.- zzz nvm..i looked back at my previous posts. most of them were emo -.- i guess bloggin's a good way to relieve stress/frustration/anger or wadever. mayb tat y gt so many emo posts =/

i've confirmed it. friends r useless..mine anw...

2nd post todae...i really gt nothing to do...friends ...wat in the world r the use of em? i can't find any. i look back on my past post n realised tat my "friends" cos more pain then joy. all of them either don care about me or have stabbed mi in the back once. they can't tell if i'm in a bad mood n think i'm being a jerk etc.etc. i hate em all. i hate every1 of em.

Emo post -.-

i hate the world i hate myself i HATE her...why the hell do i have to lyk her so much why hell does she hate me so much? lyf SUX...i hate every thing.. why do i lyk her anyway? i don even really noe. y do i have this really strong attraction to her...tis is so stupid yet i continue to chase her even tho it's meaningless even tho i noe she won't repay my feelings...i contune to bear rejections and embaressment...WHY?...i don have anyone who can understand me...anyone who cares...anyone who's will willing me help me...wat's wif tat gurl anw? why do i find her so special?...why mus all this happen to mi?? why she lyk any1 but mi? why? i'm a totally loser...no will ever lyk mi...love sux...anw i have no friends..real ones anw...no one cares bout mi..

for some reason i find that thing wif her r gettin btr...well somewat btr...haix y do i lyk her so much...onli God noes...ah well don really have much to talk bout i onli crap alot when i'm emo =/

1 of the times i've felt jealous...Along wif a whole lot of other emotions... Sorrow of couse...Despair too...Also hate...Jealous b'cos abi's with another guy... well for was for awhile...But still...He's 18...What the ****... Also despair cos i won't b able to match up wif tat guy...c'mon he's 18..i'm jus some unpopular loser...n i hate that guy...i noe i shouldn't but i hate tat guy...simply 4 existing...What's wrong with me? Am i so detestable? What do i lack? Looks? Charm? Money? Lyf's not worth living...

haix i'm talkin to myself again. Hmmm i'm not sure y i bother wif wen yew. y i'm even friends wif him. i don even lyk him. still i'm there tryin to help him out. i'm not askin 4 reconition or anything. i jus hate to c screwed up relationships. haix. honestly i find wen yew i possesive n easily jealous guy. kay maybe not easily. as far as i noe something happened between them i guessin. amanda must have two-timed him or something. still if she didn't truelly love him she wouldn't begged him to patch back. i doubt wen yew c's tis maybe he does i guess he's very different from mi i hardly get jealous. well tat's wen yew's point of view i think he's lyin bout how big the situation is. Amanda seems to love him alot i doubt she's smart enuf to fake it. still wen yew doesn't trust her in truth i don really either but i don care. why the Hell do i care? Why do i care about them? Screw it i'm not gonna care bout them. My lyf is so screwed up i got no good friends no 1 can talk to n tell wat i really feel bout something.

Heys manda told eu i'll post bout it it's a bit late though. kay firstly i think the problem is tat eu hardly spend anytime wif ur clique try to go out more often organise trips or something lyk tat eu can do it while wen yew has remedial (which is quite often) so tat he doesn't sae tat eu don care him or wateva anyway tue we usually have remedial. anw tat all i thing there is to it. Ur friends aren't to talkin simply b'cos of the lack of time eu guys spend together. Another method is tat eu cry in class n tearfully explian tat ur sad cos ur clique broke up blah blah blah although tat a bit drastic =/. lolz anw tat's all i can think of if spendin time wif them doesn't work tell mi i'll try to think of something else. cya

note tat i'll be cancellin ur entry tmr =p anw
Wad to do when WY ignores eu n eu freak out n panic:
lolz anw don worry too much bout it after awhile he'll get bored n start talkin to eu again the thing is jus keep msging him try not to pressure him to talk to eu jus lyk let him noe ur there 4 him when he nids cos he may not always be in the mood to talk to eu oso eu mayb callin n msgin so much it's startin to get on his nerves so if ur lonely jus go call myirah or someone n talk to tat person. Also ask if eu can call don jus msg n wait 4 him to call if eu really wan to talk to him cos bein the classic kiasu s'porean he doesn't wan to pay to much 4 his fone bill. If eu think he's ignorin eu send a few msgs don demand 4 him to reply jus pretend ur talkin to a wall talk bout random things or jus send a random ily/imy/iny/wadeva mushy stuff eu lyk. Generally tat all if eu really think he's angry (angry not ignorin) call mi n i'll c if i can call him (try not to call to early =X) tat bout it.

since no 1 comes to my blog no harm makin it private...i guess it helps to talk to myself...only people i trust will be readin tis blog so i guess there's no harm in puttin names n secrets...i'm at a total loss of wad to do wif abigail...i love her...her uniqueness...her demeanor...i guess love's strong word but i don noe wad else i can use to describe wat i feel...maybe she's happy being single so maybe i shouldn't chase her..or maybe there's someone elses who has her heart...tat's wad matters rite? tat the person u love is happy...so y do i feel so sad?...noeing tat she'll nvr be wif me even if she's happy...i guess i'm being selfish...but isn't it okay to be selfish sometimes?...still wad's the point...even if i wan to be selfish she'll nvr feel the same way i feel about her...so no harm lying to myself...tat i'm being conciderate by not chasin her...although it is wad matters...tat she is happy...all tat matters is tat she's smiling..besides wad can i offer tat can make her happy?...i'm jus some useless guy wif nothing special...i've got nothing...i'm not good lookin..i'm not charming...i'm not smart...i've got nothing tat will make her or any1 lyk me...i've got nothing...i'm i so unworthy tat she won even reject me properly instead of jus ignoring wad i do?...

1st time i've update in a damned month. todae i had i eng paper 2 4 prep exam i think i did quite well, after sch sucked. wasted my time damned time. i hate those people who don't sae wat they feel but instead lyk lead people around in circle frustating them. hmmm mus b fun 4 them i guess. of yar another group is those people whom eu trust which eu really shouldn't trust. bunch of losers. friend those whom i thought were friends really aren't. they can't be bothered when i friends in trouble or upset or distressed. who don't noe what they really need. who don't boher helping them as much as possible but rather lie to pretend that their doing a really big n important job. wat a bunch of assholes. doesn't really matter i've given up trying. still i wonder why i even wanted to do something for someone who so clearly detests wat i'm doin. haix my lyf is filled wif troubles lyk everyone else, mayb less then some more probably more then most. put ur self in my shoes n mayb u'll understand.

sch started =P lolz zzz odae had lessons as usual slept through most ZzZzZ then after tat went lan bumped into WY Eugene n Amanda lolz so coincedental then went lan plaed went home zzz haix i gt nothin to blog bout so i went to find some other random stuff:
When a girl bumps into your arm while walking she wants you to hold her hand
When she wants a hug she will just stand there
When u break a girls heart,she still feels it whenu run into each other 3 years later
When a girl is quiet,millions of things are running through her mind.
When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds,she is not at all fine.(duh!)
When a girl stares at you,she is wondering why you are sowonderful.When a girl lays her head on your chest,she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl says that she can't live without you,she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you, "no one in this world can miss you more than that
When a girl is mean to you after a break up she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever

wah long time nvr post todae had cip at library it was the jurong 1 haix was damn tirin but quite fun hehheh whole tym disturbing tim well the cip had it's fun moments but mostly was damn borin haix then i bought tis pouch fer 7 buck for my psp i tink i gt ripped off the pouch doesn't fit my psp properly n oso so x ZzZzZzZ T.T lolz well nthing much else oh yar sch startin soon have done phy geo n eng cos i lost them zzz anw ps tag b4 u leave thx T.T

99 facts bout guys for gurls

auganother thing i found while goin through the internet lolz i bet the gurls readin tis will be really interested bout the part bout guys lolz
are my comments
1.Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. they prefer neat and presentable girls.
2.Guys hate other flirts.
3.Guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards. (not really true)
4.When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5.Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6.Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7.When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
uys go crazy over a girl's smile.
8.Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
9.Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
10.When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
11.Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking! but do not generalise
12.Guys cry!!!
13.Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
14.Guys can never dream and hope too much.
15.Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
16.When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
17.Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
18.Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands(not really crazy...like would be a better word)
19.Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl 20.they really like.
21.When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22.When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow". (=P)
23.You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24.Guys hate gays!
25.Guys love their moms.
26.A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses. (been there done tat)
27.A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28.You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29.If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does. (not really sure wat tis means)
30.Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can. (lolz)
31.Girls are guys’ weaknesses.
32.Guys are very open about themselves.
33.It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34.No guy is bad when he is courting
35.Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.(not true fer me i don mind if a go ut wif a white shirt n com back wif i black 1 =p)
36.Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37.Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38.If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.(very true).
39.A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. (very very true)
40.A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else. (o.O)
41.Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts. (sometimes)
42.Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43.Guys virtually brag about anything.
44.Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them. (so not true)
45.Guys think too much. (i think too little -.-)
46.Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47.Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!(not really true).
48.Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive.
49.When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl. (Lolz)
50.It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more. (same fer gurls..i tink..)
51.You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52.A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up. (wow tis means i'm really mature =p)
53.When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54.Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55.Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed cats with their girlfriends.(Lolz)
56.When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
57.When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58.When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me"(usually)
59.Guys don't really have final decisions. (T.T)
60.When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61.If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him it's very important.(so true)
62.If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63.Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64.Guys like femininity not feebleness. (really true =P)
65.Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do. (o.o)
66.A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67.A guy would waste his time over video games and football, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68.Guys love girls who can cook or bake. (we love u regardless)
69.Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!......(true but only wen the guys are ready 2 be settled down.)
70.A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71.A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72.Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73.Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised. ( =) )
74.Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys. (=P)
75.Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls. (totally)
76.Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well. (=P)
77.Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them ore.
78.When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79.Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80.Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.
81.Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
82.Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83.Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
84.When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85.When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things. (o.O)
86.When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed by you or he's criticizing you.
87.When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88.If a guy lets you go, he really loves you. (T.T)
89.If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90.Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91.You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92.If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93.When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94.You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95.Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.(not really true)
96.Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
97.If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
98.Guys hate girls who overreact.
99.Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.

wah long nvr blog been so busy oso didn't have access to internet =X thx to all who tagged =D btw htet wat eu mean? o.O haix anw nthing much goin on in my life now well i went fer my church's youth/bb camp which was a combined camp between the youth ministry in my church was really fun but tiring too:
1st dae of camp
nothing much happen todae jus went on ferry go the 1 star hotel -.- then had some ice-breaker games which i hd to come up with fer my group zzz my group so irritating zzz bein ATL sux anw had i nice dinner
2nd dae of camp
we did a fun fair for lyk 300 kids their lyk my age n their so happy jus play a bunch of really really lame games haix there are times i wish my life was as simple as their's
3rd dae
same thing except fer a thousand people T.T
4th dae
i staye up the whole night then slept no the stairs with some friends cos my room mate was sleepin n i was locked out -.- after tat jus went back to s'pore
well tat's a summary of wat happened byes zzz

won b bloggin fer the nxt few daes although i have even been blogin recently hmmm todae nothin worth talkin bout happened now for something no one except one person will noe bout =P lolz: i was jokkin bout the msg i sent(the one after the msg bout eu psing me) but ur reply hurt) okay tat was emo lolz hmmm nthing else much i'll put up something nicer lyk nxt week if i find it kays bye